wanna know what's going on? :)

45 minutes ago i was watching "Endless Summer" in my little room. but i saw that the sun was beginning to set, so i jumped out of bed, slipped my sneakers on, threw a water bottle in my bag and jetted down the stairs en route to the beach. watching the sun set is like watching the nightly news. it's essential. it's the closing of another day. the ending to a day that will never happen again.

for instance...

zoila and robbie will never leave me at Playa Negra again :(
i won't be totted around on the back of coco's atv looking at properties the same way i did today.
won't wear my bathing suit for the 2nd time in my bathing suits life.
won't mistake a firefly for an airplane.

but you never know what life will bring to you... it's full of wonderfully satisfying surprises. i was telling phil today, that in high school, i was highly disciplined. i thought i was going to dance in a professional company. not, i look at my life, and it's opposite of disciplined. i do whatever i want, when i want. (within reason) and it's highly unpredictable. i mean for the most part i will stay in negra and surf everyday until i leave. but other than that, who knows what adventure surprise lies ahead?

But tonight I found myself wishing for more. a life that's greener. one where i am with all my friends, in the place of my dreams, with the man of my dreams, and im smiling so flippin big, and it lasts FOREVER! i guess im describing our wedding day to Jesus, huh? haha no, but seriously, after z and rob left, i felt a little homesick for the first time. i didn't help that it rained most of the day, leaving me inside to watch movies. :/ im not a movie buff... but endless summer is definitely a must.

things i am totally 100% thankful for in my life RIGHT NOW!

1. writing all this stuff down, especially the part about mistaking a fire fly for an airplane. it reminds me of the simplicity of life here. airplanes don't fly over these parts. simple as that.

2. i just enjoyed my monthly candy bar. milky way. haha

3. the waves are pounding really hard right now, and i can hear it from here. i love the way waves sound, because i fond it so unbelievable that i am in such a beautiful place.

4. blood is joyfully running through my body, and my body is perfectly still.

5. i feel loved by God in a big way.

6. Anything is possible, if you truly want it to be. i want to build a big treehouse one day in a beautiful place that has perfect waves, so i can surf whenever i want to.

7. That I can sit and just think about life. truly ask myself important questions. make important decisions. or listen to the crickets, and the waves make a musical melody.

8. i am single and i can do anything i feel God wants me to do.

i'm so sorry, i forget people read this, i am sure you may have scanned through all the things i said i was thankful for. i probably would too. i just got lost in writing it. ive been exercising my thankful muscles, because it keeps the flabby depression thoughts away :)

well, buenas noches mis amigos.