and Yay for that! This has to be one of the worst Christmas's I've had, and just for the record they are bad every year! BUT, There are some redeeming facts about Christmas time in the life of Lindsay Brown.
Like 1. Dinner, dinner is usually excellent, like it was this year. The menu boasted potatoes, gravy, a roast, candied carrots, bread and cabbage salad. it was seriously some good stuff. Oh, and dessert was cherry cobbler. Good stuff.
2. I got to argue with my dad, about things that shouldn't be argued about. In which I am learning the importance of COMMUNICATION!!!! It's a world unknown to me. Lord, please forgive me for the idol things I do and say, and give my friends, and myself the grace to forgive me too.
3. I got to jog. Yep, lately my shins had been hurting after jogging, but today I felt great!
4. Talked to distant relatives and friends, always a fun learning experience.
I would love to divulge into my bad mood. Which probably started yesterday, and for the record I am still entertaining her. I will be asking this bad attitude to leave tonight, so say a little prayer for me to find a healthy alternative to replace her with. Let's go surfing! :)
Friday, December 25, 2009
Wednesday, December 09, 2009
I'll tell you what's Cool!
What I just blended in my vita-mixer. Chai tea, agave, rice milk, chocolate syrup and ice. Oh, it's refreshingly heavenly! :)
More importantly; this whole GOD scandal is cool!
Spiritually? I think I am living in a generation of people who are looking for spiritual things to fill them. We look to knowledge and education, romance and sex, numbing pain with addictions... you name is, we've done it as human beings. What's pretty good is that we have done everything under the sun. Nothing is new. What's insane is that we continue to pick up these dead things and hope for life to start breathing again. There is only ONE person in history I have heard of being resurrected from the dead, and that person is Jesus Christ. No seriously, Christians all over the world believe this Jesus rose from the dead after being brutally mutilated by really mean people. Know what the Christian bible says raised him? God. Appparently, Jesus wasn't all human. He was half God, half man. That's how he pulled this scandelous raising from the dead act.
Now back to the topic... searching for spiritualness. Looking for something that has life in it. What has life? babies. women. nature. what else... there has to be more stuff, doesn't there? I mean look at the things i just mentioned. these things have been exploited terribly, and you wonder why... it looks pretty obvious to me. Babies, women and nature keep life going, if it wasn't for these three things, you and i would not exist. God put it there. But He didn't put it ALL there. A point will come when all of these things will not give you the fix you need. You will be left wanting more. And that's exactly where God wants you to be. Looking for more, and asking Him to fill up the rest of your need.
I mean it's pretty scandalous if you ask me. It's perfectly clever. God is NOT surprised when you look for LOVE in ALL the wrong places. He expects as much. He is NOT MAD at us for not knowing how to "get" to Him. I think God loves us like a dad. unconditionally.
yumm.... just finished that beautifully blended drink, i called heaven. :P
oh, so back to God. Yeah, I used to think really bad of myself and others, but I was super good at hiding it. I mean some things were clear, no sex before marriage. no hate or anger towards your brother or sister. no dreaming outside the box of your family. i mean, not having sex before marriage, i agree, is a good thing, but my problem was "why was sex before marriage bad? why is hate and anger so taboo?" "why, why, why?!" SO, what has been cool,is that I have been learning "Why..." to my many questions.
For me, having sex outside of marriage is just not proper. lol. i mean, why give something so beautiful away to someone who may not deserve it? arn't we worth more than 2 pennies? and if i am worth more than 2 pennies, shouldn't i allow myself the honor of giving my gift to someone who is able to handle and cherish me? yeah, unfortunately, when i was younger, i didn't think very highly of myself. not at all. i wasn't until God let me live with my friend zoila, that i started to get a glimpse of my value as a loved child of Gods. I liked learning why. :)
For the hatred and anger part, I had a less than pleasant experience with a friend, who i wanted to step away from for a season. we were growing apart, and it was hard for her to let go of me. and at some point, i was determined to just say, "i give up all together with this friendship." and it's basically what i did, and with so much freedom. I remember how good i felt, when finally had the courage to let go and be OK with my decision.
I don't know what it is, but getting older is good. it's so good that sometimes i get frustrated with how quickly time goes by... i really DON"T like that! really. i dont. :)
so yeah, to recap
1. My chai contraption is good.
2. God is good!
3. Getting older/gaining understanding is good.
But I do have one things that is bothering me. I want to start a dance studio cabinas in Costa Rica, I basically just want to live and work in Costa Rica. It's a beautiful place. I used to want to move there because I was hopelessly attracted to a guy there, but... that's not really the case anymore. I enjoy the laid back life style of the pura vida kind of life. BUT... my dad and the rest of my family is pushing me to get educated as an LPN here. WHich is cool. I just feel like that would be letting go of my dreams. Yet, i do undeerstand, that this may just be a little delay. I could achieve my dreams again later on down the road..
Prayers:
Please share with me yours.
"Tell me they troubles, and speak freely"
1. that God will open and shut all the right and wrong doors. I have lots of ideas, and i am just waiting to see which way the dominoes fall.
thanks! Blessings on you, and all who come into contact with you!
More importantly; this whole GOD scandal is cool!
Spiritually? I think I am living in a generation of people who are looking for spiritual things to fill them. We look to knowledge and education, romance and sex, numbing pain with addictions... you name is, we've done it as human beings. What's pretty good is that we have done everything under the sun. Nothing is new. What's insane is that we continue to pick up these dead things and hope for life to start breathing again. There is only ONE person in history I have heard of being resurrected from the dead, and that person is Jesus Christ. No seriously, Christians all over the world believe this Jesus rose from the dead after being brutally mutilated by really mean people. Know what the Christian bible says raised him? God. Appparently, Jesus wasn't all human. He was half God, half man. That's how he pulled this scandelous raising from the dead act.
Now back to the topic... searching for spiritualness. Looking for something that has life in it. What has life? babies. women. nature. what else... there has to be more stuff, doesn't there? I mean look at the things i just mentioned. these things have been exploited terribly, and you wonder why... it looks pretty obvious to me. Babies, women and nature keep life going, if it wasn't for these three things, you and i would not exist. God put it there. But He didn't put it ALL there. A point will come when all of these things will not give you the fix you need. You will be left wanting more. And that's exactly where God wants you to be. Looking for more, and asking Him to fill up the rest of your need.
I mean it's pretty scandalous if you ask me. It's perfectly clever. God is NOT surprised when you look for LOVE in ALL the wrong places. He expects as much. He is NOT MAD at us for not knowing how to "get" to Him. I think God loves us like a dad. unconditionally.
yumm.... just finished that beautifully blended drink, i called heaven. :P
oh, so back to God. Yeah, I used to think really bad of myself and others, but I was super good at hiding it. I mean some things were clear, no sex before marriage. no hate or anger towards your brother or sister. no dreaming outside the box of your family. i mean, not having sex before marriage, i agree, is a good thing, but my problem was "why was sex before marriage bad? why is hate and anger so taboo?" "why, why, why?!" SO, what has been cool,is that I have been learning "Why..." to my many questions.
For me, having sex outside of marriage is just not proper. lol. i mean, why give something so beautiful away to someone who may not deserve it? arn't we worth more than 2 pennies? and if i am worth more than 2 pennies, shouldn't i allow myself the honor of giving my gift to someone who is able to handle and cherish me? yeah, unfortunately, when i was younger, i didn't think very highly of myself. not at all. i wasn't until God let me live with my friend zoila, that i started to get a glimpse of my value as a loved child of Gods. I liked learning why. :)
For the hatred and anger part, I had a less than pleasant experience with a friend, who i wanted to step away from for a season. we were growing apart, and it was hard for her to let go of me. and at some point, i was determined to just say, "i give up all together with this friendship." and it's basically what i did, and with so much freedom. I remember how good i felt, when finally had the courage to let go and be OK with my decision.
I don't know what it is, but getting older is good. it's so good that sometimes i get frustrated with how quickly time goes by... i really DON"T like that! really. i dont. :)
so yeah, to recap
1. My chai contraption is good.
2. God is good!
3. Getting older/gaining understanding is good.
But I do have one things that is bothering me. I want to start a dance studio cabinas in Costa Rica, I basically just want to live and work in Costa Rica. It's a beautiful place. I used to want to move there because I was hopelessly attracted to a guy there, but... that's not really the case anymore. I enjoy the laid back life style of the pura vida kind of life. BUT... my dad and the rest of my family is pushing me to get educated as an LPN here. WHich is cool. I just feel like that would be letting go of my dreams. Yet, i do undeerstand, that this may just be a little delay. I could achieve my dreams again later on down the road..
Prayers:
Please share with me yours.
"Tell me they troubles, and speak freely"
1. that God will open and shut all the right and wrong doors. I have lots of ideas, and i am just waiting to see which way the dominoes fall.
thanks! Blessings on you, and all who come into contact with you!
Sunday, December 06, 2009
Dance Resume
Lindsay Brown
Contact Info: 954-614-8373
Lindserbrown@gmail.com
Height:5'5 Hair color: Dirty Blonde
Weight: 125 Eye color: Hazel/Brown
Training:
Broadway Dance Center- Six Month Internship. Studied under David Howard
Ballet Magnificat!- Pre-Professional Trainee Program Director: Kathy Thibodeaux
Dillard School of the Arts- Four-year Performing Arts High School Studied under Hannah Baumgarten, Denise Dalton, Jo Matos and Alan Arnett
Virginia School of the Arts- Summer Program Full Scholarship Recipient Director: Petus Bosman
Stage Experience:
Ballet Magnificat! Performed "Existence" by Tara Thibodeaux Miss Greater East Bay Pagaent
Ballet Magnificat! Soloist in "Groove." Toured throughout Mississippi and California
Dillard School of the Arts Danced "Le Corsaire" Pas de Deux Broward Center for the Performing Arts
Holy Sweat Ministies Performed "Via Delorosa" solo Toured Guatemala, Mexico, Honduras
Television Experience:
The View Dancer for the show/ Announcer for Fergi ABC
Work Experience:
Costa Rica Casa Papaya Taught beg. Ballet, Hip-Hop Adult Hip-Hop Costa Rica, Central America
Calvary Christian Academy- Taught beg. ballet, modern and lyrical Fort Lauderdale, Florida
Many But One- Taught beg. ballet, hip-hop, tap and lyrical Boca Raton, Florida
Ballet Elite- Taught body conditioning, beg. & adv. ballet Margate, Florida
Special Skills: Conversational Spanish Speaker; surfer, missionary, choreographer, idealist. Knowledge of real estate, personal finance and nutrition. Lover of anthropology.
Contact Info: 954-614-8373
Lindserbrown@gmail.com
Height:5'5 Hair color: Dirty Blonde
Weight: 125 Eye color: Hazel/Brown
Training:
Broadway Dance Center- Six Month Internship. Studied under David Howard
Ballet Magnificat!- Pre-Professional Trainee Program Director: Kathy Thibodeaux
Dillard School of the Arts- Four-year Performing Arts High School Studied under Hannah Baumgarten, Denise Dalton, Jo Matos and Alan Arnett
Virginia School of the Arts- Summer Program Full Scholarship Recipient Director: Petus Bosman
Stage Experience:
Ballet Magnificat! Performed "Existence" by Tara Thibodeaux Miss Greater East Bay Pagaent
Ballet Magnificat! Soloist in "Groove." Toured throughout Mississippi and California
Dillard School of the Arts Danced "Le Corsaire" Pas de Deux Broward Center for the Performing Arts
Holy Sweat Ministies Performed "Via Delorosa" solo Toured Guatemala, Mexico, Honduras
Television Experience:
The View Dancer for the show/ Announcer for Fergi ABC
Work Experience:
Costa Rica Casa Papaya Taught beg. Ballet, Hip-Hop Adult Hip-Hop Costa Rica, Central America
Calvary Christian Academy- Taught beg. ballet, modern and lyrical Fort Lauderdale, Florida
Many But One- Taught beg. ballet, hip-hop, tap and lyrical Boca Raton, Florida
Ballet Elite- Taught body conditioning, beg. & adv. ballet Margate, Florida
Special Skills: Conversational Spanish Speaker; surfer, missionary, choreographer, idealist. Knowledge of real estate, personal finance and nutrition. Lover of anthropology.
Saturday, December 05, 2009
sometimes...
sometimes things just work out. sometimes they don't. but today, i have to say one of the highlights was an email i recieved from a childhood friend. She sent me this hymn. and it just really touched me. Like i said, today was just one of those days where I wasn't expecting anything terrific to happen, but this "worked" intself into my day. yay!
How tedious and tasteless the hours
When Jesus no longer I see;
Sweet prospects, sweet birds and sweet flowers,
Have all lost their sweetness to me;
The midsummer sun shines but dim,
The fields strive in vain to look gay.
But when I am happy in Him,
December's as pleasant as May.
His Name yields the richest perfume,
And sweeter than music His voice;
His presence disperses my gloom,
And makes all within me rejoice.
I should, were He always thus nigh,
Have nothing to wish or to fear;
No mortal so happy as I,
My summer would last all the year.
Content with beholding His face,
My all to His pleasure resigned,
No changes of season or place
Would make any change in my mind:
While blessed with a sense of His love,
A palace a toy would appear;
And prisons would palaces prove,
If Jesus would dwell with me there.
Dear Lord, if indeed I am Thine,
If Thou art my sun and my song,
Say, why do I languish and pine?
And why are my winters so long?
O drive these dark clouds from my sky,
Thy soul cheering presence restore;
Or take me unto Thee on high,
Where winter and clouds are no more.
Prayer Requests
I need STRENGTH! it seems like these past few weeks have been a roller coaster of highs and lows... mainly being lows. which has to be OK, so i am learning some VALUABLE lessons. 1 being... i won't wait in line to get on a roller coaster again (emotionally speaking) 2. God's smarter than me, and it would behoove me to listen to what he says.
sometimes a little lenience will cause a lot of damage. you know, subtly is a POWERFUL deciever. You may think you're on the right track, but a little off to the right or the left will bring you to an entirely different place. So my prayer is that God would set me on the path He has ordained for me right now. Amen.
Dad's COrner
Dad is doing well. I just think the world of him. Sometimes i wish i could appreciate him AND communicate it so perfectly. Him and Gloria are on and strong.
How tedious and tasteless the hours
When Jesus no longer I see;
Sweet prospects, sweet birds and sweet flowers,
Have all lost their sweetness to me;
The midsummer sun shines but dim,
The fields strive in vain to look gay.
But when I am happy in Him,
December's as pleasant as May.
His Name yields the richest perfume,
And sweeter than music His voice;
His presence disperses my gloom,
And makes all within me rejoice.
I should, were He always thus nigh,
Have nothing to wish or to fear;
No mortal so happy as I,
My summer would last all the year.
Content with beholding His face,
My all to His pleasure resigned,
No changes of season or place
Would make any change in my mind:
While blessed with a sense of His love,
A palace a toy would appear;
And prisons would palaces prove,
If Jesus would dwell with me there.
Dear Lord, if indeed I am Thine,
If Thou art my sun and my song,
Say, why do I languish and pine?
And why are my winters so long?
O drive these dark clouds from my sky,
Thy soul cheering presence restore;
Or take me unto Thee on high,
Where winter and clouds are no more.
Prayer Requests
I need STRENGTH! it seems like these past few weeks have been a roller coaster of highs and lows... mainly being lows. which has to be OK, so i am learning some VALUABLE lessons. 1 being... i won't wait in line to get on a roller coaster again (emotionally speaking) 2. God's smarter than me, and it would behoove me to listen to what he says.
sometimes a little lenience will cause a lot of damage. you know, subtly is a POWERFUL deciever. You may think you're on the right track, but a little off to the right or the left will bring you to an entirely different place. So my prayer is that God would set me on the path He has ordained for me right now. Amen.
Dad's COrner
Dad is doing well. I just think the world of him. Sometimes i wish i could appreciate him AND communicate it so perfectly. Him and Gloria are on and strong.
Wednesday, December 02, 2009
3 is important
this is the 3rd time i tried to write a blog tonight... ive had things to write about, but they have all been less than uplifting.... like the first time i started with... "banana pancakes has been stuck in my head for days and it's depressing me" then my next attempt i didn't even get to filling out the title... i just stared at the screen, scanning through my thoughts, and none of them seemed interesting enough to pen. so here i am... i think i finally have a story... a highlight. numba 3 :) it's the coolest
highlight of my day.
so, i was talking to my friends answering machine, when i realized how excited I sounded. i wondered why... and i realized i was happy because i was talking to my friend from costa rica. i am happy when i talk about that place, because i experienced so much growth and love.
Im really thankful for that time.
Lindsay's Corner
WHat's going on? well, im not sure if i told you, but my dad his g.f and i were planning to go to peru in january. it looks like those plans will fall thru. which is fine. i need to get my wisdom teeth pulled... so i guess it will happen another time and another place of God's liking. :)
2. starting school... who0-hoo!! i can't believe it, i will finally start school sometime this year. it's pretty exciting, i will become a licensed practical nurse. wish me lots of luck, please :)
3. i had a new idea... what if after i graduate school, i drive the truck to LA, california, and then onward to Costa Rica. I wanna do that drive so bad. with just a surfboard, my truck, a friend, my liscense and maybe some money. that sounds so lovely!!!! i wanna go to LA, because i wanna experience the dance scene for a while... who knows maybe i will stay there for a length of time. anything is possible.
highlight of my day.
so, i was talking to my friends answering machine, when i realized how excited I sounded. i wondered why... and i realized i was happy because i was talking to my friend from costa rica. i am happy when i talk about that place, because i experienced so much growth and love.
Im really thankful for that time.
Lindsay's Corner
WHat's going on? well, im not sure if i told you, but my dad his g.f and i were planning to go to peru in january. it looks like those plans will fall thru. which is fine. i need to get my wisdom teeth pulled... so i guess it will happen another time and another place of God's liking. :)
2. starting school... who0-hoo!! i can't believe it, i will finally start school sometime this year. it's pretty exciting, i will become a licensed practical nurse. wish me lots of luck, please :)
3. i had a new idea... what if after i graduate school, i drive the truck to LA, california, and then onward to Costa Rica. I wanna do that drive so bad. with just a surfboard, my truck, a friend, my liscense and maybe some money. that sounds so lovely!!!! i wanna go to LA, because i wanna experience the dance scene for a while... who knows maybe i will stay there for a length of time. anything is possible.
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