I'll tell you what's Cool!

What I just blended in my vita-mixer. Chai tea, agave, rice milk, chocolate syrup and ice. Oh, it's refreshingly heavenly! :)

More importantly; this whole GOD scandal is cool!

Spiritually? I think I am living in a generation of people who are looking for spiritual things to fill them. We look to knowledge and education, romance and sex, numbing pain with addictions... you name is, we've done it as human beings. What's pretty good is that we have done everything under the sun. Nothing is new. What's insane is that we continue to pick up these dead things and hope for life to start breathing again. There is only ONE person in history I have heard of being resurrected from the dead, and that person is Jesus Christ. No seriously, Christians all over the world believe this Jesus rose from the dead after being brutally mutilated by really mean people. Know what the Christian bible says raised him? God. Appparently, Jesus wasn't all human. He was half God, half man. That's how he pulled this scandelous raising from the dead act.

Now back to the topic... searching for spiritualness. Looking for something that has life in it. What has life? babies. women. nature. what else... there has to be more stuff, doesn't there? I mean look at the things i just mentioned. these things have been exploited terribly, and you wonder why... it looks pretty obvious to me. Babies, women and nature keep life going, if it wasn't for these three things, you and i would not exist. God put it there. But He didn't put it ALL there. A point will come when all of these things will not give you the fix you need. You will be left wanting more. And that's exactly where God wants you to be. Looking for more, and asking Him to fill up the rest of your need.

I mean it's pretty scandalous if you ask me. It's perfectly clever. God is NOT surprised when you look for LOVE in ALL the wrong places. He expects as much. He is NOT MAD at us for not knowing how to "get" to Him. I think God loves us like a dad. unconditionally.

yumm.... just finished that beautifully blended drink, i called heaven. :P

oh, so back to God. Yeah, I used to think really bad of myself and others, but I was super good at hiding it. I mean some things were clear, no sex before marriage. no hate or anger towards your brother or sister. no dreaming outside the box of your family. i mean, not having sex before marriage, i agree, is a good thing, but my problem was "why was sex before marriage bad? why is hate and anger so taboo?" "why, why, why?!" SO, what has been cool,is that I have been learning "Why..." to my many questions.

For me, having sex outside of marriage is just not proper. lol. i mean, why give something so beautiful away to someone who may not deserve it? arn't we worth more than 2 pennies? and if i am worth more than 2 pennies, shouldn't i allow myself the honor of giving my gift to someone who is able to handle and cherish me? yeah, unfortunately, when i was younger, i didn't think very highly of myself. not at all. i wasn't until God let me live with my friend zoila, that i started to get a glimpse of my value as a loved child of Gods. I liked learning why. :)

For the hatred and anger part, I had a less than pleasant experience with a friend, who i wanted to step away from for a season. we were growing apart, and it was hard for her to let go of me. and at some point, i was determined to just say, "i give up all together with this friendship." and it's basically what i did, and with so much freedom. I remember how good i felt, when finally had the courage to let go and be OK with my decision.

I don't know what it is, but getting older is good. it's so good that sometimes i get frustrated with how quickly time goes by... i really DON"T like that! really. i dont. :)

so yeah, to recap
1. My chai contraption is good.
2. God is good!
3. Getting older/gaining understanding is good.

But I do have one things that is bothering me. I want to start a dance studio cabinas in Costa Rica, I basically just want to live and work in Costa Rica. It's a beautiful place. I used to want to move there because I was hopelessly attracted to a guy there, but... that's not really the case anymore. I enjoy the laid back life style of the pura vida kind of life. BUT... my dad and the rest of my family is pushing me to get educated as an LPN here. WHich is cool. I just feel like that would be letting go of my dreams. Yet, i do undeerstand, that this may just be a little delay. I could achieve my dreams again later on down the road..

Prayers:
Please share with me yours.
"Tell me they troubles, and speak freely"

1. that God will open and shut all the right and wrong doors. I have lots of ideas, and i am just waiting to see which way the dominoes fall.

thanks! Blessings on you, and all who come into contact with you!