shaking

There is a whole lot of shaking going on.

I feel it in all areas of my life.

Physically, relationships are continually sharpened and more golden everyday. It's a beautiful thing, and I can only imagine, maybe the Lord is doing something really awesome in the next couple months/years with the closest friends I have ever had! What a blessing to be surrounded by some of the smartest, most beautiful and creative, passionate, encouraging and committed friends I have ever experienced in my lifetime thus far. :)

Mentally, the things I think are so important to the Lord and to me, because they ultimately shape my life and how I respond to situations. I just learned something for Andrew Wommack, when a situation comes, have faith! Don't cry and let yourself be overtaken, have faith and DO NOT LET YOUR HEART BE TROUBLED! This is thhhrrillling.... because any ANY, Im talking ANY, situation, I can respond to in faith. If I get told "I don't love you anymore." I can have faith that I am about to be surrounded by MORE LOVE than I could possible imagine. If I get told, "you have cancer." I can respond with "THANK YOU, now I get to go see JESUS!" If my loved one dies, I will say "hold up! Let's first go see if we can raise them back!" What a life Jesus has for us! It's so adventurous! God, I would like to go on an adventurous life with you! I would like to mentally think the things YOU thing, and see things the way YOU see them. I want to be like you. You're my ONE and ONLY God! ;)

Spiritually, corporately speaking, the Christians I know are plowing into the harvest fields with integrity behind them. God has been showing me much about integrity and grace. I read in Psalm 16 this morning, David was telling God, "Hey God, your way is the best way and I'm putting one foot in front of the other to walk YOUR way. I'm not giving up!" That's EXACTLY how I feel. Actually all of Psalm 16 is how I feel today. Praise You JEsus! I have never been loved the way you love me.

So yeah! Like I said, there is a lot of shaking going on... and I said all the good perspectives, I didn't even talk about the knee shaking scardey cat moments Ive felt! Seriously, some paralyzing fear has gripped me and held me in bondage, but I said "No, this is not my destiny in Christ!" No joke, I was free. True story... I was waiting for my boyfriend, Ryan, at a local restaurant. We had just gotten into a BIG one, one of those fights where words and actions cause tears... very uncomfortable. Nontheless, we got through it, but I was still beating myself up with the thoughts "how can I prevent us from... fill it a gloomy outcome. Then a thought dawned on me. It was almost like God interrupted my conversation with myself to remind me something... Here is what He said.

"Lindsay, I bet your frustrated, and don't know what to do, right? Feeling helpless and picturing an inevitably dull and sad future? Well, baby girl, lover, beauty friend, (I think I added those) do what you want to do. You want relationship rather than being right. So create relationship. So, I started writing him a love letter. It just flowed like the Nile. but I say al that to say, I can't beat myself up, I have to build myself and others up! Build! We are builders! God is shaking thing and breaking the weak and old things off of us, but it's our chance to renovate the existing to the most beautiful place we can imagine. Why not! Why not love even though you feel hurt? Did the person mean to hurt you? Not if you love and respect each other. Well, thanks for reading. Be blessed by Jesus.

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