new heart

a new heart is what i want. for the past 9 months I have pictured my life with a certain guy, a certain way, all minus the guy and the way! haha My head and imagination is excellent, but sometimes it gets me in trouble. So, now, no more trouble with this imaginary life. Let's make a plan for a realistic life... plus the things that already exist! Oh boy, I think we're on to something here...

Person I want to be...
compassionate
thoughtful
fearless
welcoming
open
wise
fun
powerful in conviction

My dad told me today, that he was taught to always pray for others and not for himself. If I did that, I wonder if my mind would be more focused on the joy, sorrows and successes of others, and less focused on my own wants needs and desires. I would like to practice only praying for others, and see where it gets me...

I'll fill you in when I have some data :)

Super Nerdy Bloggage

Now, I'd like to just type some stuff off my chest.

Will my eyes get worse if I am constantly looking at things only close by? I try to stretch my eye muscles, by looking all around, but I'm a little suspicious that my eye problems are from only focusing things near by. hum... interesting, maybe that would also parallell with my future planning. I like to dream about the future, but I am fearful of planning for the future. One good thing I can foresee is that I will be starting nursing school within the next 3 - 6 months. I am trying tonot be afraid, and to look forward to growing older and making future goals and plans. Sometimes I fall into the typical "baby of the family" category, where everyine has always taken care of me. Now it's time to take care of myself, it's a necessary adjustment that I have only become aware of recently. I am thankful for the enlightenment. Thanks Jesus for teaching me the ways to true life.Seriously, I like You a lot.

Opened and closed doors.

I have been praying for many weeks with a certain request, and God has defintely shut the door. I feel free. I feel thankful. Even though I wanted a different outcome, Im expectant God will make my path straight towards the goal. Love. Christ.

If I could sum up my whole life, and only say one thing to everyone... it would be "Love Christ."

This continues to change me all the time. I don't know how, or why... but it does. I am so thankful for God. His ways, this night, the door that closed, the healthy food i was blessed to eat, my dad, his favor for me, colby. i think God made me like this, therefore I thank God.

Yahhoo... new heart, start beating.. now! :)