life is but a dream....

i rowed my boat away from the world today. i let go of hopes, dreams, relationships and other "stuff" i had been pursuing.

i felt scared when i did this because i didn't want to let these things go.

"if i let these things go, i don't know who ill be," i thought to myself...


so, there were two boats, and one boat had all the things that make me "me" on it. everything that identifies me is there on that boat. my experiences, dreams, wants... EVERYTHING. but on the other boat is jesus and me. that's all. i was holding on to the othe r boat by a rope. i knew if i let go... all hell would break lose and heaven would rejoice... so i let go. and then... the boats got sucked away to polar opposites of the sea. i am at sea with jesus, i have no clue where...

and I love it.

verse of inspiration luke 9 :23 ish

23-27Then he told them what they could expect for themselves: "Anyone who intends to come with me has to let me lead. You're not in the driver's seat—I am. Don't run from suffering; embrace it. Follow me and I'll show you how. Self-help is no help at all. Self-sacrifice is the way, my way, to finding yourself, your true self. What good would it do to get everything you want and lose you, the real you? If any of you is embarrassed with me and the way I'm leading you, know that the Son of Man will be far more embarrassed with you when he arrives in all his splendor in company with the Father and the holy angels. This isn't, you realize, pie in the sky by and by. Some who have taken their stand right here are going to see it happen, see with their own eyes the kingdom of God."

and i shared my story of meeting Jesus with Pamela and her son, phil tonight. pamelas father is dying in the UK. she needs the love and support and prayer for God's perfect will over her life. rejoice, again i say rejoice, this is no pie in the sky by and by kind of faith. God's kingdom is coming to earth.