and Yay for that! This has to be one of the worst Christmas's I've had, and just for the record they are bad every year! BUT, There are some redeeming facts about Christmas time in the life of Lindsay Brown.
Like 1. Dinner, dinner is usually excellent, like it was this year. The menu boasted potatoes, gravy, a roast, candied carrots, bread and cabbage salad. it was seriously some good stuff. Oh, and dessert was cherry cobbler. Good stuff.
2. I got to argue with my dad, about things that shouldn't be argued about. In which I am learning the importance of COMMUNICATION!!!! It's a world unknown to me. Lord, please forgive me for the idol things I do and say, and give my friends, and myself the grace to forgive me too.
3. I got to jog. Yep, lately my shins had been hurting after jogging, but today I felt great!
4. Talked to distant relatives and friends, always a fun learning experience.
I would love to divulge into my bad mood. Which probably started yesterday, and for the record I am still entertaining her. I will be asking this bad attitude to leave tonight, so say a little prayer for me to find a healthy alternative to replace her with. Let's go surfing! :)
Friday, December 25, 2009
Wednesday, December 09, 2009
I'll tell you what's Cool!
What I just blended in my vita-mixer. Chai tea, agave, rice milk, chocolate syrup and ice. Oh, it's refreshingly heavenly! :)
More importantly; this whole GOD scandal is cool!
Spiritually? I think I am living in a generation of people who are looking for spiritual things to fill them. We look to knowledge and education, romance and sex, numbing pain with addictions... you name is, we've done it as human beings. What's pretty good is that we have done everything under the sun. Nothing is new. What's insane is that we continue to pick up these dead things and hope for life to start breathing again. There is only ONE person in history I have heard of being resurrected from the dead, and that person is Jesus Christ. No seriously, Christians all over the world believe this Jesus rose from the dead after being brutally mutilated by really mean people. Know what the Christian bible says raised him? God. Appparently, Jesus wasn't all human. He was half God, half man. That's how he pulled this scandelous raising from the dead act.
Now back to the topic... searching for spiritualness. Looking for something that has life in it. What has life? babies. women. nature. what else... there has to be more stuff, doesn't there? I mean look at the things i just mentioned. these things have been exploited terribly, and you wonder why... it looks pretty obvious to me. Babies, women and nature keep life going, if it wasn't for these three things, you and i would not exist. God put it there. But He didn't put it ALL there. A point will come when all of these things will not give you the fix you need. You will be left wanting more. And that's exactly where God wants you to be. Looking for more, and asking Him to fill up the rest of your need.
I mean it's pretty scandalous if you ask me. It's perfectly clever. God is NOT surprised when you look for LOVE in ALL the wrong places. He expects as much. He is NOT MAD at us for not knowing how to "get" to Him. I think God loves us like a dad. unconditionally.
yumm.... just finished that beautifully blended drink, i called heaven. :P
oh, so back to God. Yeah, I used to think really bad of myself and others, but I was super good at hiding it. I mean some things were clear, no sex before marriage. no hate or anger towards your brother or sister. no dreaming outside the box of your family. i mean, not having sex before marriage, i agree, is a good thing, but my problem was "why was sex before marriage bad? why is hate and anger so taboo?" "why, why, why?!" SO, what has been cool,is that I have been learning "Why..." to my many questions.
For me, having sex outside of marriage is just not proper. lol. i mean, why give something so beautiful away to someone who may not deserve it? arn't we worth more than 2 pennies? and if i am worth more than 2 pennies, shouldn't i allow myself the honor of giving my gift to someone who is able to handle and cherish me? yeah, unfortunately, when i was younger, i didn't think very highly of myself. not at all. i wasn't until God let me live with my friend zoila, that i started to get a glimpse of my value as a loved child of Gods. I liked learning why. :)
For the hatred and anger part, I had a less than pleasant experience with a friend, who i wanted to step away from for a season. we were growing apart, and it was hard for her to let go of me. and at some point, i was determined to just say, "i give up all together with this friendship." and it's basically what i did, and with so much freedom. I remember how good i felt, when finally had the courage to let go and be OK with my decision.
I don't know what it is, but getting older is good. it's so good that sometimes i get frustrated with how quickly time goes by... i really DON"T like that! really. i dont. :)
so yeah, to recap
1. My chai contraption is good.
2. God is good!
3. Getting older/gaining understanding is good.
But I do have one things that is bothering me. I want to start a dance studio cabinas in Costa Rica, I basically just want to live and work in Costa Rica. It's a beautiful place. I used to want to move there because I was hopelessly attracted to a guy there, but... that's not really the case anymore. I enjoy the laid back life style of the pura vida kind of life. BUT... my dad and the rest of my family is pushing me to get educated as an LPN here. WHich is cool. I just feel like that would be letting go of my dreams. Yet, i do undeerstand, that this may just be a little delay. I could achieve my dreams again later on down the road..
Prayers:
Please share with me yours.
"Tell me they troubles, and speak freely"
1. that God will open and shut all the right and wrong doors. I have lots of ideas, and i am just waiting to see which way the dominoes fall.
thanks! Blessings on you, and all who come into contact with you!
More importantly; this whole GOD scandal is cool!
Spiritually? I think I am living in a generation of people who are looking for spiritual things to fill them. We look to knowledge and education, romance and sex, numbing pain with addictions... you name is, we've done it as human beings. What's pretty good is that we have done everything under the sun. Nothing is new. What's insane is that we continue to pick up these dead things and hope for life to start breathing again. There is only ONE person in history I have heard of being resurrected from the dead, and that person is Jesus Christ. No seriously, Christians all over the world believe this Jesus rose from the dead after being brutally mutilated by really mean people. Know what the Christian bible says raised him? God. Appparently, Jesus wasn't all human. He was half God, half man. That's how he pulled this scandelous raising from the dead act.
Now back to the topic... searching for spiritualness. Looking for something that has life in it. What has life? babies. women. nature. what else... there has to be more stuff, doesn't there? I mean look at the things i just mentioned. these things have been exploited terribly, and you wonder why... it looks pretty obvious to me. Babies, women and nature keep life going, if it wasn't for these three things, you and i would not exist. God put it there. But He didn't put it ALL there. A point will come when all of these things will not give you the fix you need. You will be left wanting more. And that's exactly where God wants you to be. Looking for more, and asking Him to fill up the rest of your need.
I mean it's pretty scandalous if you ask me. It's perfectly clever. God is NOT surprised when you look for LOVE in ALL the wrong places. He expects as much. He is NOT MAD at us for not knowing how to "get" to Him. I think God loves us like a dad. unconditionally.
yumm.... just finished that beautifully blended drink, i called heaven. :P
oh, so back to God. Yeah, I used to think really bad of myself and others, but I was super good at hiding it. I mean some things were clear, no sex before marriage. no hate or anger towards your brother or sister. no dreaming outside the box of your family. i mean, not having sex before marriage, i agree, is a good thing, but my problem was "why was sex before marriage bad? why is hate and anger so taboo?" "why, why, why?!" SO, what has been cool,is that I have been learning "Why..." to my many questions.
For me, having sex outside of marriage is just not proper. lol. i mean, why give something so beautiful away to someone who may not deserve it? arn't we worth more than 2 pennies? and if i am worth more than 2 pennies, shouldn't i allow myself the honor of giving my gift to someone who is able to handle and cherish me? yeah, unfortunately, when i was younger, i didn't think very highly of myself. not at all. i wasn't until God let me live with my friend zoila, that i started to get a glimpse of my value as a loved child of Gods. I liked learning why. :)
For the hatred and anger part, I had a less than pleasant experience with a friend, who i wanted to step away from for a season. we were growing apart, and it was hard for her to let go of me. and at some point, i was determined to just say, "i give up all together with this friendship." and it's basically what i did, and with so much freedom. I remember how good i felt, when finally had the courage to let go and be OK with my decision.
I don't know what it is, but getting older is good. it's so good that sometimes i get frustrated with how quickly time goes by... i really DON"T like that! really. i dont. :)
so yeah, to recap
1. My chai contraption is good.
2. God is good!
3. Getting older/gaining understanding is good.
But I do have one things that is bothering me. I want to start a dance studio cabinas in Costa Rica, I basically just want to live and work in Costa Rica. It's a beautiful place. I used to want to move there because I was hopelessly attracted to a guy there, but... that's not really the case anymore. I enjoy the laid back life style of the pura vida kind of life. BUT... my dad and the rest of my family is pushing me to get educated as an LPN here. WHich is cool. I just feel like that would be letting go of my dreams. Yet, i do undeerstand, that this may just be a little delay. I could achieve my dreams again later on down the road..
Prayers:
Please share with me yours.
"Tell me they troubles, and speak freely"
1. that God will open and shut all the right and wrong doors. I have lots of ideas, and i am just waiting to see which way the dominoes fall.
thanks! Blessings on you, and all who come into contact with you!
Sunday, December 06, 2009
Dance Resume
Lindsay Brown
Contact Info: 954-614-8373
Lindserbrown@gmail.com
Height:5'5 Hair color: Dirty Blonde
Weight: 125 Eye color: Hazel/Brown
Training:
Broadway Dance Center- Six Month Internship. Studied under David Howard
Ballet Magnificat!- Pre-Professional Trainee Program Director: Kathy Thibodeaux
Dillard School of the Arts- Four-year Performing Arts High School Studied under Hannah Baumgarten, Denise Dalton, Jo Matos and Alan Arnett
Virginia School of the Arts- Summer Program Full Scholarship Recipient Director: Petus Bosman
Stage Experience:
Ballet Magnificat! Performed "Existence" by Tara Thibodeaux Miss Greater East Bay Pagaent
Ballet Magnificat! Soloist in "Groove." Toured throughout Mississippi and California
Dillard School of the Arts Danced "Le Corsaire" Pas de Deux Broward Center for the Performing Arts
Holy Sweat Ministies Performed "Via Delorosa" solo Toured Guatemala, Mexico, Honduras
Television Experience:
The View Dancer for the show/ Announcer for Fergi ABC
Work Experience:
Costa Rica Casa Papaya Taught beg. Ballet, Hip-Hop Adult Hip-Hop Costa Rica, Central America
Calvary Christian Academy- Taught beg. ballet, modern and lyrical Fort Lauderdale, Florida
Many But One- Taught beg. ballet, hip-hop, tap and lyrical Boca Raton, Florida
Ballet Elite- Taught body conditioning, beg. & adv. ballet Margate, Florida
Special Skills: Conversational Spanish Speaker; surfer, missionary, choreographer, idealist. Knowledge of real estate, personal finance and nutrition. Lover of anthropology.
Contact Info: 954-614-8373
Lindserbrown@gmail.com
Height:5'5 Hair color: Dirty Blonde
Weight: 125 Eye color: Hazel/Brown
Training:
Broadway Dance Center- Six Month Internship. Studied under David Howard
Ballet Magnificat!- Pre-Professional Trainee Program Director: Kathy Thibodeaux
Dillard School of the Arts- Four-year Performing Arts High School Studied under Hannah Baumgarten, Denise Dalton, Jo Matos and Alan Arnett
Virginia School of the Arts- Summer Program Full Scholarship Recipient Director: Petus Bosman
Stage Experience:
Ballet Magnificat! Performed "Existence" by Tara Thibodeaux Miss Greater East Bay Pagaent
Ballet Magnificat! Soloist in "Groove." Toured throughout Mississippi and California
Dillard School of the Arts Danced "Le Corsaire" Pas de Deux Broward Center for the Performing Arts
Holy Sweat Ministies Performed "Via Delorosa" solo Toured Guatemala, Mexico, Honduras
Television Experience:
The View Dancer for the show/ Announcer for Fergi ABC
Work Experience:
Costa Rica Casa Papaya Taught beg. Ballet, Hip-Hop Adult Hip-Hop Costa Rica, Central America
Calvary Christian Academy- Taught beg. ballet, modern and lyrical Fort Lauderdale, Florida
Many But One- Taught beg. ballet, hip-hop, tap and lyrical Boca Raton, Florida
Ballet Elite- Taught body conditioning, beg. & adv. ballet Margate, Florida
Special Skills: Conversational Spanish Speaker; surfer, missionary, choreographer, idealist. Knowledge of real estate, personal finance and nutrition. Lover of anthropology.
Saturday, December 05, 2009
sometimes...
sometimes things just work out. sometimes they don't. but today, i have to say one of the highlights was an email i recieved from a childhood friend. She sent me this hymn. and it just really touched me. Like i said, today was just one of those days where I wasn't expecting anything terrific to happen, but this "worked" intself into my day. yay!
How tedious and tasteless the hours
When Jesus no longer I see;
Sweet prospects, sweet birds and sweet flowers,
Have all lost their sweetness to me;
The midsummer sun shines but dim,
The fields strive in vain to look gay.
But when I am happy in Him,
December's as pleasant as May.
His Name yields the richest perfume,
And sweeter than music His voice;
His presence disperses my gloom,
And makes all within me rejoice.
I should, were He always thus nigh,
Have nothing to wish or to fear;
No mortal so happy as I,
My summer would last all the year.
Content with beholding His face,
My all to His pleasure resigned,
No changes of season or place
Would make any change in my mind:
While blessed with a sense of His love,
A palace a toy would appear;
And prisons would palaces prove,
If Jesus would dwell with me there.
Dear Lord, if indeed I am Thine,
If Thou art my sun and my song,
Say, why do I languish and pine?
And why are my winters so long?
O drive these dark clouds from my sky,
Thy soul cheering presence restore;
Or take me unto Thee on high,
Where winter and clouds are no more.
Prayer Requests
I need STRENGTH! it seems like these past few weeks have been a roller coaster of highs and lows... mainly being lows. which has to be OK, so i am learning some VALUABLE lessons. 1 being... i won't wait in line to get on a roller coaster again (emotionally speaking) 2. God's smarter than me, and it would behoove me to listen to what he says.
sometimes a little lenience will cause a lot of damage. you know, subtly is a POWERFUL deciever. You may think you're on the right track, but a little off to the right or the left will bring you to an entirely different place. So my prayer is that God would set me on the path He has ordained for me right now. Amen.
Dad's COrner
Dad is doing well. I just think the world of him. Sometimes i wish i could appreciate him AND communicate it so perfectly. Him and Gloria are on and strong.
How tedious and tasteless the hours
When Jesus no longer I see;
Sweet prospects, sweet birds and sweet flowers,
Have all lost their sweetness to me;
The midsummer sun shines but dim,
The fields strive in vain to look gay.
But when I am happy in Him,
December's as pleasant as May.
His Name yields the richest perfume,
And sweeter than music His voice;
His presence disperses my gloom,
And makes all within me rejoice.
I should, were He always thus nigh,
Have nothing to wish or to fear;
No mortal so happy as I,
My summer would last all the year.
Content with beholding His face,
My all to His pleasure resigned,
No changes of season or place
Would make any change in my mind:
While blessed with a sense of His love,
A palace a toy would appear;
And prisons would palaces prove,
If Jesus would dwell with me there.
Dear Lord, if indeed I am Thine,
If Thou art my sun and my song,
Say, why do I languish and pine?
And why are my winters so long?
O drive these dark clouds from my sky,
Thy soul cheering presence restore;
Or take me unto Thee on high,
Where winter and clouds are no more.
Prayer Requests
I need STRENGTH! it seems like these past few weeks have been a roller coaster of highs and lows... mainly being lows. which has to be OK, so i am learning some VALUABLE lessons. 1 being... i won't wait in line to get on a roller coaster again (emotionally speaking) 2. God's smarter than me, and it would behoove me to listen to what he says.
sometimes a little lenience will cause a lot of damage. you know, subtly is a POWERFUL deciever. You may think you're on the right track, but a little off to the right or the left will bring you to an entirely different place. So my prayer is that God would set me on the path He has ordained for me right now. Amen.
Dad's COrner
Dad is doing well. I just think the world of him. Sometimes i wish i could appreciate him AND communicate it so perfectly. Him and Gloria are on and strong.
Wednesday, December 02, 2009
3 is important
this is the 3rd time i tried to write a blog tonight... ive had things to write about, but they have all been less than uplifting.... like the first time i started with... "banana pancakes has been stuck in my head for days and it's depressing me" then my next attempt i didn't even get to filling out the title... i just stared at the screen, scanning through my thoughts, and none of them seemed interesting enough to pen. so here i am... i think i finally have a story... a highlight. numba 3 :) it's the coolest
highlight of my day.
so, i was talking to my friends answering machine, when i realized how excited I sounded. i wondered why... and i realized i was happy because i was talking to my friend from costa rica. i am happy when i talk about that place, because i experienced so much growth and love.
Im really thankful for that time.
Lindsay's Corner
WHat's going on? well, im not sure if i told you, but my dad his g.f and i were planning to go to peru in january. it looks like those plans will fall thru. which is fine. i need to get my wisdom teeth pulled... so i guess it will happen another time and another place of God's liking. :)
2. starting school... who0-hoo!! i can't believe it, i will finally start school sometime this year. it's pretty exciting, i will become a licensed practical nurse. wish me lots of luck, please :)
3. i had a new idea... what if after i graduate school, i drive the truck to LA, california, and then onward to Costa Rica. I wanna do that drive so bad. with just a surfboard, my truck, a friend, my liscense and maybe some money. that sounds so lovely!!!! i wanna go to LA, because i wanna experience the dance scene for a while... who knows maybe i will stay there for a length of time. anything is possible.
highlight of my day.
so, i was talking to my friends answering machine, when i realized how excited I sounded. i wondered why... and i realized i was happy because i was talking to my friend from costa rica. i am happy when i talk about that place, because i experienced so much growth and love.
Im really thankful for that time.
Lindsay's Corner
WHat's going on? well, im not sure if i told you, but my dad his g.f and i were planning to go to peru in january. it looks like those plans will fall thru. which is fine. i need to get my wisdom teeth pulled... so i guess it will happen another time and another place of God's liking. :)
2. starting school... who0-hoo!! i can't believe it, i will finally start school sometime this year. it's pretty exciting, i will become a licensed practical nurse. wish me lots of luck, please :)
3. i had a new idea... what if after i graduate school, i drive the truck to LA, california, and then onward to Costa Rica. I wanna do that drive so bad. with just a surfboard, my truck, a friend, my liscense and maybe some money. that sounds so lovely!!!! i wanna go to LA, because i wanna experience the dance scene for a while... who knows maybe i will stay there for a length of time. anything is possible.
Tuesday, November 24, 2009
poem 1
I'm so glad that your listening... I can have your undivided eyes, with thoughts focused on us tonight
Lately I have felt a wall between us and it wasn't you who built it.
It always amazes me how I try to block you from seeing me, all of me, in her natural form and setting.
i guess it is because i think your perfect.
and i dont ever want you to uncover that i am not.
i guess it's because your forgiving
and i dont want you to ever see that im struggling to keep up
or i guess its because i think you wouldn't understand
but your the one who made me like this in the first place.
so, i guess when i am struggling to build the wall... brick by brick
you will gentle remove it, with a reaffirming look... that says "you will always be mine."
This is a poem that was inspired here, off the cuff and from the inner Spirit inside. Im unsure how a pregnant women feels when there is a baby inside her womb, but i am wondering if i feel that way tonight... knowing that the Spirit living inside of me is living and growing, and longing to manifest itself through my every day thoughts, words and actions. it's moving and breathing... dreaming, creating, loving, dancing, talking and singing...
today was a really cool day. the best part of the day was realizing "why" the gospel is good news. because, as you can see from my poem, i do build walls in effort to hide from jesus, which is why i was wrestling with this question in the first place. " why is the gospel good news for me?"
well. here was an answer to my question: this gospel of jesus is good news because he taught that God and Him were one. equals but different. unlike judaism, where the rules of God are taught, and must be taught in order for one to understand. jesus came singing a different song... his song went like this.... "you don't have to be able to read, write or speak to know i love you. look within, im teaching you, God made you like this, look inside and you will see the Kingdom of God is at hand. You were made as a son and daughter of this King, and His love is written on your heart of flesh... look love, do you see it?"
:) its not written in stone, like the 10 commandments. Jesus did not come to save the righteous the people who know God's love through rules written on stone, but to the sinners. the one's who sin, because they dont know they are loved.
have you ever wondered why you find yourself making poor decisions? saying hurtful things? or having a sour attitude? ill tell you why... that "loved/respected wrinkle " hasn't been smoothed out by believing your loved.respected... for some reason or another, you ain't feeling the love!
And... actually i think it was st fancis of assissi who said "people arn't starving for food and clothing, but for love and appreciation." and i know this is so true for me. As of right now, im all sorts of wrinkly, and with you as my witness im asking "Lord, would you please smooth out the unloved wrinkles in my heart, so that i can be loved, and then love you back too? then maybe i can love others, and tell them you said, they don;t have to have "it" all together, but that you just want them to believe you when you say you love them, and that you are the pathway that leads them to true, lasting love? that would be cool. amen"
Lindsay's Corner
I like to make updates...
1. we are having a thanksgiving feast with zoila and her family. i am happy about this, because they are funny people and i get to hang out with them and hear how their lives are going.
2. my dad and his girlfriend, gloria, are back on and going strong. although i am super happy my dad is happy... i am reminded of my singleness... which praise God I have right now! however, I have sent Him my request for a beautiful godly man who i can share my life with... he hasn't replied yet, i am still waiting. :)
3. peru. so, i guess we may be going in january for a couple of weeks. i am excited because i need to get my impacted wisdom teeth pulled, and i can get it done cheap in Peru. Plus, gloria is from there and she will let us stay in her house. :)
i have a friend, jeronimo that may be there, he is super cute, so i wait expectantly to see if God will open the door for us to see each other. :) haha
4. the art exhibit dance routine... is better than the video on youtube... i'd tell you to watch it if i thought it was good... but i shall without this info... it wasn't good, and it's better now. :)
5. dancing for christmas. at a church. to a song by 4Him. Strange way to save the world. i love doing a little dance routines... the thing i need now is a dance costume. pray that it will be so perfect, and the audience will wanna just give Jesus a Big Spirited Hug!!
6. thanks for reading. i love you, and cherish you. and am hoping you are doing well. you are more appreciated and loved than you think...
dream,
Lindsay
Lately I have felt a wall between us and it wasn't you who built it.
It always amazes me how I try to block you from seeing me, all of me, in her natural form and setting.
i guess it is because i think your perfect.
and i dont ever want you to uncover that i am not.
i guess it's because your forgiving
and i dont want you to ever see that im struggling to keep up
or i guess its because i think you wouldn't understand
but your the one who made me like this in the first place.
so, i guess when i am struggling to build the wall... brick by brick
you will gentle remove it, with a reaffirming look... that says "you will always be mine."
This is a poem that was inspired here, off the cuff and from the inner Spirit inside. Im unsure how a pregnant women feels when there is a baby inside her womb, but i am wondering if i feel that way tonight... knowing that the Spirit living inside of me is living and growing, and longing to manifest itself through my every day thoughts, words and actions. it's moving and breathing... dreaming, creating, loving, dancing, talking and singing...
today was a really cool day. the best part of the day was realizing "why" the gospel is good news. because, as you can see from my poem, i do build walls in effort to hide from jesus, which is why i was wrestling with this question in the first place. " why is the gospel good news for me?"
well. here was an answer to my question: this gospel of jesus is good news because he taught that God and Him were one. equals but different. unlike judaism, where the rules of God are taught, and must be taught in order for one to understand. jesus came singing a different song... his song went like this.... "you don't have to be able to read, write or speak to know i love you. look within, im teaching you, God made you like this, look inside and you will see the Kingdom of God is at hand. You were made as a son and daughter of this King, and His love is written on your heart of flesh... look love, do you see it?"
:) its not written in stone, like the 10 commandments. Jesus did not come to save the righteous the people who know God's love through rules written on stone, but to the sinners. the one's who sin, because they dont know they are loved.
have you ever wondered why you find yourself making poor decisions? saying hurtful things? or having a sour attitude? ill tell you why... that "loved/respected wrinkle " hasn't been smoothed out by believing your loved.respected... for some reason or another, you ain't feeling the love!
And... actually i think it was st fancis of assissi who said "people arn't starving for food and clothing, but for love and appreciation." and i know this is so true for me. As of right now, im all sorts of wrinkly, and with you as my witness im asking "Lord, would you please smooth out the unloved wrinkles in my heart, so that i can be loved, and then love you back too? then maybe i can love others, and tell them you said, they don;t have to have "it" all together, but that you just want them to believe you when you say you love them, and that you are the pathway that leads them to true, lasting love? that would be cool. amen"
Lindsay's Corner
I like to make updates...
1. we are having a thanksgiving feast with zoila and her family. i am happy about this, because they are funny people and i get to hang out with them and hear how their lives are going.
2. my dad and his girlfriend, gloria, are back on and going strong. although i am super happy my dad is happy... i am reminded of my singleness... which praise God I have right now! however, I have sent Him my request for a beautiful godly man who i can share my life with... he hasn't replied yet, i am still waiting. :)
3. peru. so, i guess we may be going in january for a couple of weeks. i am excited because i need to get my impacted wisdom teeth pulled, and i can get it done cheap in Peru. Plus, gloria is from there and she will let us stay in her house. :)
i have a friend, jeronimo that may be there, he is super cute, so i wait expectantly to see if God will open the door for us to see each other. :) haha
4. the art exhibit dance routine... is better than the video on youtube... i'd tell you to watch it if i thought it was good... but i shall without this info... it wasn't good, and it's better now. :)
5. dancing for christmas. at a church. to a song by 4Him. Strange way to save the world. i love doing a little dance routines... the thing i need now is a dance costume. pray that it will be so perfect, and the audience will wanna just give Jesus a Big Spirited Hug!!
6. thanks for reading. i love you, and cherish you. and am hoping you are doing well. you are more appreciated and loved than you think...
dream,
Lindsay
Thursday, November 19, 2009
letting go... means not holding on.
Lindsay's Corner:
letting go... of expectations i have in life...
of potential romances...
of fears...
of bad memories...
bad habits...
sour attitudes...
weakness...
grudges.
and EMBRACING
prayer
inner peace
forgiveness
quietness
togetherness
acceptance of oneself exactly as they are
acceptance of others that way too
laughter unabashedly
baggage junk
shadows and the sunlight
waking up early
just plain old "going with the flow..."
Oh, what a joy life can be!
You know today was yet another day of practicing patience with myself. was it bad that I got jealous of my dad and gloria? what in me was offended when my dad chose to go to lunch with gloria and not with me? on one hand, i am so thankful she is in my dad's life, because he is happier with her. she gives him hope and lightness. but on the other hand, i want that for myself too, and i don't have it right now. I do have singleness which I am totally thankful for, and i have my friends, who are all so wonderfully precious. I have the Lord, he makes my step light and my eyes bright with hope. but, i guess it isn't the same when you have someone to share the ups and downs with in life when they are not your immediate family.
maybe that's why i got jealous.
so, let me just take a moment to thank all of you, my friends, for being patient with me, and loving me the way i am. you do a great job at that! i have no complaints. only accolades.
oh, oh... go with the flow...
plant a seed and wait to see which one will grow....
my wildest dreams are...
to travel to argentina and india to teach dance.
visit a monestary
study traditional chinese medicine in china
build a treehouse, and have a wellness home, and a summer dance program for fun.
surf whenever i want to
live off the land
sleep under the stars
have a beautiful, humble husband, who can cook and likes to exercise.
see my kids playing in the trees.
seeing peoples hearts, bodies and souls restored by God's love.
all these things, and life is complete... haha
hopes:
to have my house rented out so i can travel
marry effortlessly a humble man soon, i would atleast like my dad to know him
to have al my kids naturally
to live the life God has for me in abounding measure
to bring vision to others and my children about God's love and provision over their lifes.
i hope i can always be happy in jesus and in who he has made me.
yeah... :P
letting go... of expectations i have in life...
of potential romances...
of fears...
of bad memories...
bad habits...
sour attitudes...
weakness...
grudges.
and EMBRACING
prayer
inner peace
forgiveness
quietness
togetherness
acceptance of oneself exactly as they are
acceptance of others that way too
laughter unabashedly
baggage junk
shadows and the sunlight
waking up early
just plain old "going with the flow..."
Oh, what a joy life can be!
You know today was yet another day of practicing patience with myself. was it bad that I got jealous of my dad and gloria? what in me was offended when my dad chose to go to lunch with gloria and not with me? on one hand, i am so thankful she is in my dad's life, because he is happier with her. she gives him hope and lightness. but on the other hand, i want that for myself too, and i don't have it right now. I do have singleness which I am totally thankful for, and i have my friends, who are all so wonderfully precious. I have the Lord, he makes my step light and my eyes bright with hope. but, i guess it isn't the same when you have someone to share the ups and downs with in life when they are not your immediate family.
maybe that's why i got jealous.
so, let me just take a moment to thank all of you, my friends, for being patient with me, and loving me the way i am. you do a great job at that! i have no complaints. only accolades.
oh, oh... go with the flow...
plant a seed and wait to see which one will grow....
my wildest dreams are...
to travel to argentina and india to teach dance.
visit a monestary
study traditional chinese medicine in china
build a treehouse, and have a wellness home, and a summer dance program for fun.
surf whenever i want to
live off the land
sleep under the stars
have a beautiful, humble husband, who can cook and likes to exercise.
see my kids playing in the trees.
seeing peoples hearts, bodies and souls restored by God's love.
all these things, and life is complete... haha
hopes:
to have my house rented out so i can travel
marry effortlessly a humble man soon, i would atleast like my dad to know him
to have al my kids naturally
to live the life God has for me in abounding measure
to bring vision to others and my children about God's love and provision over their lifes.
i hope i can always be happy in jesus and in who he has made me.
yeah... :P
Wednesday, November 18, 2009
and so it goes on and on...
Just to forewarn you... this is all about death... sorry.
so, i was thinking about my pending health problems... fridgity, fatigue, slight depression... not cool, right? I feel sorta like I am slowly dying. and it's weird, because i think i am empathic towards my dad's slow fade, so much so that i am beginning to take it on as my own. i mean, i could be just imagining this, but i have no real reason to feel the way i do.
is it ok to feel this way? of course, acceptance of this idea has actually lead me to some amazing insights. first of all, i know i won't actually die. but for some reason, because my father is dying... i feel "like" i want to die too. it's sad, i know, and i thought to myself..."Lindsay, how about this, let say your heart will be broken so badly that you will feel dead." i thought that was a good enough compromise, because Ive read in the scriptures that if you die, then you will truly live. (arn't our deceased loved one's lucky?) and God is near to those who are broken hearted. so it can't be all that bad.
so i say all of this to say this... maybe if part of me does die then his memory will live, and therefore we will both live on in some sort of way. i don't know. it comforts me.
but i could surely benefit to remember my dad's faithfulness. waking me up at any time. picking me up anywhere. giving to me in any way. i sure would love to be remembered for being faithful. that memory can live.
or perhaps the way he told stories. papi could make me laugh way before he told the punch line. if he started to laugh in any way, i was roaring. i still don;t know how he does it. i really admire him. this memory can live too.
dude, and i love his sayings... even though i thought they were silly and archaic for most of my life. "don't kill the goose who lays the golden eggs" "keep you nose to the wind, ear to the ground, and arm to the wheel." "take risks" "what you liked at 18, you won't like at 21, and what you liked at 21 you wont like at 25" "work smart, not hard" ... these will live.
oh, and one more, whenever i was in doubt, for whatever reason, my dad was so generous with his "iloveyou's" as a child we would go on and on "iloveyoutimesinfinity" and the next one would reply "well, iloveyoutimesinfinitytimesinfinity" this would go on for a while. but my dad never gave up on us kids. even after my mom died, he faithfully came home everynight. even through my brother's painful addiction, he never gave up. even through all my crazy ideas, foreign destinations and buisness ideas, my dad still supported me. i want to live out this.
and even though he says he doesn't like colby, he sure does pet him and talk to him a lot. i like this too.
vulnerably, i ask that if you see me, after he has passed away, please hold me and reaffirm me that everything is going to be alright, and that there is a new life I am to embrace.
he is a pleasure to know. i am so thankful for his life.
so, i was thinking about my pending health problems... fridgity, fatigue, slight depression... not cool, right? I feel sorta like I am slowly dying. and it's weird, because i think i am empathic towards my dad's slow fade, so much so that i am beginning to take it on as my own. i mean, i could be just imagining this, but i have no real reason to feel the way i do.
is it ok to feel this way? of course, acceptance of this idea has actually lead me to some amazing insights. first of all, i know i won't actually die. but for some reason, because my father is dying... i feel "like" i want to die too. it's sad, i know, and i thought to myself..."Lindsay, how about this, let say your heart will be broken so badly that you will feel dead." i thought that was a good enough compromise, because Ive read in the scriptures that if you die, then you will truly live. (arn't our deceased loved one's lucky?) and God is near to those who are broken hearted. so it can't be all that bad.
so i say all of this to say this... maybe if part of me does die then his memory will live, and therefore we will both live on in some sort of way. i don't know. it comforts me.
but i could surely benefit to remember my dad's faithfulness. waking me up at any time. picking me up anywhere. giving to me in any way. i sure would love to be remembered for being faithful. that memory can live.
or perhaps the way he told stories. papi could make me laugh way before he told the punch line. if he started to laugh in any way, i was roaring. i still don;t know how he does it. i really admire him. this memory can live too.
dude, and i love his sayings... even though i thought they were silly and archaic for most of my life. "don't kill the goose who lays the golden eggs" "keep you nose to the wind, ear to the ground, and arm to the wheel." "take risks" "what you liked at 18, you won't like at 21, and what you liked at 21 you wont like at 25" "work smart, not hard" ... these will live.
oh, and one more, whenever i was in doubt, for whatever reason, my dad was so generous with his "iloveyou's" as a child we would go on and on "iloveyoutimesinfinity" and the next one would reply "well, iloveyoutimesinfinitytimesinfinity" this would go on for a while. but my dad never gave up on us kids. even after my mom died, he faithfully came home everynight. even through my brother's painful addiction, he never gave up. even through all my crazy ideas, foreign destinations and buisness ideas, my dad still supported me. i want to live out this.
and even though he says he doesn't like colby, he sure does pet him and talk to him a lot. i like this too.
vulnerably, i ask that if you see me, after he has passed away, please hold me and reaffirm me that everything is going to be alright, and that there is a new life I am to embrace.
he is a pleasure to know. i am so thankful for his life.
Monday, November 02, 2009
Stunning, Surprising, anything but Safe!
So, today's flow is a little different. I wanted to share what has been going on through the eyes of Lindsay Brown. Choosing to ride my bike, allows me a perspective different from the car driver.
Yesterday when I was riding my bike to the beach, I saw a car in the middle of the street not moving. Assuming the car was broken down, I glanced at the driver as I rode by. But instead of seeing a distressed person, I saw a sound sleeping gentlemen in the passenger seat! Atfirst I was scared, because I thought for sure this man had a stroke or something. But no, as I walked my bike back to check it out, he awoke from taking a little snooze!!!!
And then... I saw a little boy today waiting at the bus stop near my brothers house. And he was holding his stuffed monkey and wiping his eyes with his shirt. after I passed, i realized he must of been running away from his house. ;( isn't that adorable? and sad?
I enjoy the things I get to see in my bicycle adventures. it;s one way for me to slow down and enjoy the world around me.
It's 4:30 in the morning here and I am looking at plane tickets! I first looked up Japan, because I was interested in their diet and lifestyle. I could get there for about 1,000. that's not really that much. I could also go to Hawaii, but I want to save that for vacation. But i could see myself going to Japan sooner than Hawaii, unless I knew someone else who wanted to go. Endless possibilities, as for now, i will eventually fall back asleep, and then ride my bike tommorrow. :)
I thank God for this time.
Sincerely,
Lindsay
Yesterday when I was riding my bike to the beach, I saw a car in the middle of the street not moving. Assuming the car was broken down, I glanced at the driver as I rode by. But instead of seeing a distressed person, I saw a sound sleeping gentlemen in the passenger seat! Atfirst I was scared, because I thought for sure this man had a stroke or something. But no, as I walked my bike back to check it out, he awoke from taking a little snooze!!!!
And then... I saw a little boy today waiting at the bus stop near my brothers house. And he was holding his stuffed monkey and wiping his eyes with his shirt. after I passed, i realized he must of been running away from his house. ;( isn't that adorable? and sad?
I enjoy the things I get to see in my bicycle adventures. it;s one way for me to slow down and enjoy the world around me.
It's 4:30 in the morning here and I am looking at plane tickets! I first looked up Japan, because I was interested in their diet and lifestyle. I could get there for about 1,000. that's not really that much. I could also go to Hawaii, but I want to save that for vacation. But i could see myself going to Japan sooner than Hawaii, unless I knew someone else who wanted to go. Endless possibilities, as for now, i will eventually fall back asleep, and then ride my bike tommorrow. :)
I thank God for this time.
Sincerely,
Lindsay
Tuesday, October 20, 2009
its been a while... but im still here! :)
Where is Lindsay right now?
Spiritually: getting better... i have been wrestling with some issues about marriage, unequal yoked-ness, the truth of who I am in Christ.
Side note; what a reward it is to know that the truth says I am His, and nothing can ever take that away. Seriously, I am the most blessed person on the face of the earth., and so are you if you believe what the bible says.
Mentally: Sleeping at night has become a chore. I am unsure if it is because I am in a new place, the constant itchy arms, or the loneliness. What I am sure of though, is that its a combination of all these things. :)Loneliness almost drove me to insanity yesterday. I wish I was kidding, but I am not. I can vow my word, that I am not traveling unless I am with someone. If I know I am going to be alone, for longer than a day, I AM NOT GOING! What do I think I am, an island? Mentally, I have been reshifting my thought upon the Lord, I have been allowing myself to worry and be preoccupied with low things, but today is much better. Starting the day with prayer always makes a HUGE impact on the rest of my day. Again, I am priviledged to have a way to talk with this God of love.
I have also been telling myself that I am loved, and thought well of by God and my friends. Am I the only one who ever feels like the world is against them?! haha I know I am not, that's why I have been reminding myself of these timeless truths.
Mind: Been reading books. one on communication. Short and simple, alliteration, imagination, precision are all key. say what you mean, and mean what you say.
So, that was book 1... I have also been reading books on the stock market, which I think will only prove my lack of desire further. I just think real estate is the best route for me when thinking about investing my money. unless, it has something to do with ira's, cd's or even municiple bonds. Im just stock market disinterested. Maybe one day.
Dwell Magazine: Magazine of choice. I am gleaning from their ideas just exactly what I would like to build one day for my future family. The more I think about it, the more fueled I become to build a retreat center with some treehouse cabinas, along with a studio. I would like this place to be where all the fun is at. :) I was thinking the other day, that it may be a good idea to buy a small condo on the beach somewhere, rent it out, as an income, and build my dream land in costa rica. Lord, again, I lay this all down at your feet.
Physically: I waited to answer this question last... it's so exciting! for me! maybe you too. Because i have been doing lots of studying on health lately, and have found myself super interested in Traditional Chinese Medicine. So yesterday, I went to Chinatown. (NYC) and I found a traditional chinese medicine doctor. For $10 bucks he checked my pulse, eyes, and tongue and diagnosed me with weak pulse, too much yin, and weak kidneys. Now, in western standards, this may sound sketchy. I understand, but this is eastern herbal remedies, done without equiptment, and all naturally with remedies grown from the earth. So, too much yin, means my internal world is not balanced and it's hotter than it needs to be. He asked me if I was lethargic, and immediately, I knew he was on the right track. I haven't been a little "down" in months! and for some reason, i was blue. So, anyways, the gave me some herbal remedies to help cool my insides and reestablish the homeostasis level of my body. I love that our bodies are connected mind, body and spirit. God made us this way for a reason. If one part is off, it will manifest in another area as well. SO, yeah! Yesterday, even though I was blue, i did something i have been longing to do for quite sometime. went to see a TCM doctor. It was realy chill. You should see the tea sludge I am drinking. It's so crazy, it reminds me of the "stew" I used to brew as a child with the scrapes from the yard.
Thanks-a-lot! corner
1. I am super thankful that I get to enjoy my birthday at a spa.
2. This weird chinese tea.
3. Finally getting the laundry done! that was a task!
4. sitting down and writing this blog.
5. My dad and that he calls me his sunshine.
6. Im coming home in a week!
7. I am going leave collecting in central park later. (God willing)
8. your reading this! talk to me! write me a thought of yours, or just something your thinking about :)
Spiritually: getting better... i have been wrestling with some issues about marriage, unequal yoked-ness, the truth of who I am in Christ.
Side note; what a reward it is to know that the truth says I am His, and nothing can ever take that away. Seriously, I am the most blessed person on the face of the earth., and so are you if you believe what the bible says.
Mentally: Sleeping at night has become a chore. I am unsure if it is because I am in a new place, the constant itchy arms, or the loneliness. What I am sure of though, is that its a combination of all these things. :)Loneliness almost drove me to insanity yesterday. I wish I was kidding, but I am not. I can vow my word, that I am not traveling unless I am with someone. If I know I am going to be alone, for longer than a day, I AM NOT GOING! What do I think I am, an island? Mentally, I have been reshifting my thought upon the Lord, I have been allowing myself to worry and be preoccupied with low things, but today is much better. Starting the day with prayer always makes a HUGE impact on the rest of my day. Again, I am priviledged to have a way to talk with this God of love.
I have also been telling myself that I am loved, and thought well of by God and my friends. Am I the only one who ever feels like the world is against them?! haha I know I am not, that's why I have been reminding myself of these timeless truths.
Mind: Been reading books. one on communication. Short and simple, alliteration, imagination, precision are all key. say what you mean, and mean what you say.
So, that was book 1... I have also been reading books on the stock market, which I think will only prove my lack of desire further. I just think real estate is the best route for me when thinking about investing my money. unless, it has something to do with ira's, cd's or even municiple bonds. Im just stock market disinterested. Maybe one day.
Dwell Magazine: Magazine of choice. I am gleaning from their ideas just exactly what I would like to build one day for my future family. The more I think about it, the more fueled I become to build a retreat center with some treehouse cabinas, along with a studio. I would like this place to be where all the fun is at. :) I was thinking the other day, that it may be a good idea to buy a small condo on the beach somewhere, rent it out, as an income, and build my dream land in costa rica. Lord, again, I lay this all down at your feet.
Physically: I waited to answer this question last... it's so exciting! for me! maybe you too. Because i have been doing lots of studying on health lately, and have found myself super interested in Traditional Chinese Medicine. So yesterday, I went to Chinatown. (NYC) and I found a traditional chinese medicine doctor. For $10 bucks he checked my pulse, eyes, and tongue and diagnosed me with weak pulse, too much yin, and weak kidneys. Now, in western standards, this may sound sketchy. I understand, but this is eastern herbal remedies, done without equiptment, and all naturally with remedies grown from the earth. So, too much yin, means my internal world is not balanced and it's hotter than it needs to be. He asked me if I was lethargic, and immediately, I knew he was on the right track. I haven't been a little "down" in months! and for some reason, i was blue. So, anyways, the gave me some herbal remedies to help cool my insides and reestablish the homeostasis level of my body. I love that our bodies are connected mind, body and spirit. God made us this way for a reason. If one part is off, it will manifest in another area as well. SO, yeah! Yesterday, even though I was blue, i did something i have been longing to do for quite sometime. went to see a TCM doctor. It was realy chill. You should see the tea sludge I am drinking. It's so crazy, it reminds me of the "stew" I used to brew as a child with the scrapes from the yard.
Thanks-a-lot! corner
1. I am super thankful that I get to enjoy my birthday at a spa.
2. This weird chinese tea.
3. Finally getting the laundry done! that was a task!
4. sitting down and writing this blog.
5. My dad and that he calls me his sunshine.
6. Im coming home in a week!
7. I am going leave collecting in central park later. (God willing)
8. your reading this! talk to me! write me a thought of yours, or just something your thinking about :)
Tuesday, September 29, 2009
even darkness is good. I want to record these jewels.
You know, I used to separate things into good and bad.
But... "The earth is the Lord's and everything in it, the world and all who live in it. He founded it upon the seas and established it upon the waters."
i had this thought as I was riding home on my bike tonight. "I feel safe in Christianity." and let me explain. I feel "safe" because Jesus didnt come to wipe away the old testament, and begin a new religion. He came to complete the old testament. period. He fulfilled the prophecies predicted about the Savior that was to come. He did it humbly. flawlessly. real. grimy. He did it. I find it so satisfying, so rewarding, so honoring, to be identified with His name. Christ. I mean, I give Him mad LOVE. I gave my life over for Him to utilize for His glory. I am the MOST BLESSED person on the face of the earth.
So, yeah, even darkness is good. How? Why are bad things good? How can evil things be classified as good? Here is why... Because of Jesus. No matter what, Jesus makes light out of darkness... for those who believe. In fact, he says in weakness, HE is strong. Dude, Saviour Christ ALWAYS comes to the rescue. But if you don't believe, why not? Does the concept of something bigger than you sound far-fetched? Have you been too dulled to decide for yourself? Are you just waiting till you get older and will have less fun? well, today is the day to decide. Just do it. It's time. It's time to really find what you were made for!
I know bad things, believe me... mom dies when im 14. brother dies of drug abuse. growing up in mental lies and filth. lack of health and self love. dull. really dull. having to find my own way.... and somehow, the truth found me, and saved my sad, lonely, shivering cold soul. And THAT is the only reason I am breathing each breathe with thankfulness and joy. Because God used to Jesus to show me He loved me, and wanted me to be apart of His family. (Now, I realize I am the apple of His eye, His bride. with the BEST seat in the house;)
You know another thought swimming around in my head is one of simple stillness. I watch the nature, it does not worry or toil or work, and everything works out perfectly. PERFECTLY. Do I ever have a reason to worry? i just need to take life easy, and everything will be taken care of.
Yet, another thought is this... My SPIRIT has a husband. It's Her Maker. She is a bride. My mind has a Lover, it's the truth that that I am loved, and therefore free. My body, will have a husband, one to bring a deeper knowledge of the Love of my MAKER. I feel like the Spirit manifests things to the mind and the mind makes the body act out. Also the reverse, the body is a tool, for the mind to understand things, and therefore deepen our understanding of things about heaven, Jesus and God. Really cool.
Thanks for reading. Hope you could jog along with me. I love thinking about God, and know that I have BARELY begun to scratch the surface. I'm So pumped about the time I get to spend learning, thinking, meditating and discussing his simply yet complex truths in the future.
Thanks God! and thank you! :)
Shalom,
Lindsay
But... "The earth is the Lord's and everything in it, the world and all who live in it. He founded it upon the seas and established it upon the waters."
i had this thought as I was riding home on my bike tonight. "I feel safe in Christianity." and let me explain. I feel "safe" because Jesus didnt come to wipe away the old testament, and begin a new religion. He came to complete the old testament. period. He fulfilled the prophecies predicted about the Savior that was to come. He did it humbly. flawlessly. real. grimy. He did it. I find it so satisfying, so rewarding, so honoring, to be identified with His name. Christ. I mean, I give Him mad LOVE. I gave my life over for Him to utilize for His glory. I am the MOST BLESSED person on the face of the earth.
So, yeah, even darkness is good. How? Why are bad things good? How can evil things be classified as good? Here is why... Because of Jesus. No matter what, Jesus makes light out of darkness... for those who believe. In fact, he says in weakness, HE is strong. Dude, Saviour Christ ALWAYS comes to the rescue. But if you don't believe, why not? Does the concept of something bigger than you sound far-fetched? Have you been too dulled to decide for yourself? Are you just waiting till you get older and will have less fun? well, today is the day to decide. Just do it. It's time. It's time to really find what you were made for!
I know bad things, believe me... mom dies when im 14. brother dies of drug abuse. growing up in mental lies and filth. lack of health and self love. dull. really dull. having to find my own way.... and somehow, the truth found me, and saved my sad, lonely, shivering cold soul. And THAT is the only reason I am breathing each breathe with thankfulness and joy. Because God used to Jesus to show me He loved me, and wanted me to be apart of His family. (Now, I realize I am the apple of His eye, His bride. with the BEST seat in the house;)
You know another thought swimming around in my head is one of simple stillness. I watch the nature, it does not worry or toil or work, and everything works out perfectly. PERFECTLY. Do I ever have a reason to worry? i just need to take life easy, and everything will be taken care of.
Yet, another thought is this... My SPIRIT has a husband. It's Her Maker. She is a bride. My mind has a Lover, it's the truth that that I am loved, and therefore free. My body, will have a husband, one to bring a deeper knowledge of the Love of my MAKER. I feel like the Spirit manifests things to the mind and the mind makes the body act out. Also the reverse, the body is a tool, for the mind to understand things, and therefore deepen our understanding of things about heaven, Jesus and God. Really cool.
Thanks for reading. Hope you could jog along with me. I love thinking about God, and know that I have BARELY begun to scratch the surface. I'm So pumped about the time I get to spend learning, thinking, meditating and discussing his simply yet complex truths in the future.
Thanks God! and thank you! :)
Shalom,
Lindsay
Friday, September 11, 2009
YOUR choices WILL CHANGE THE WORLD!
Dude,
I mean I know I am not perfect. Actually I am quite far from perfection... sadly so. But I am content with who I am right now. But besides that, something else that I do know is that God has made us powerful! Our decisions have the ability to create a new world. If you can imagine and decide to pursue something beautiful, healthy, alive and flowing with love... then it may as well become a reality. and it soon will be. My friend, there is one Lover of our souls. His name is Jesus. The reason why it is so important to acknowledge Christ as a reality is because, let's face it, you have a choice. Even though Jesus wasn't a super hot pop icon, He changed this world with his thoughts. He shared His thoughts with people, and some of His thoughts changed the people who listened. If someone told me I could be healed(and i am very ill), and it was through a man who confessed to be God... I would listen to what he had to say, if it seemed to align with my spirit, i would believe what He says. I mean, i might be like Doubting Thomas, but now as a believer, i really believe every word that hung in the air as it left HIS mouth. I believe Jesus is the only way, the real truth, and He gives real life. why? because after 10 years, i have had some time to test Him out. and believe me, I have! He has been One of the only ones to love me NO MATTER WHAT. No matter what has happened, he has been right there. I mean like closer than the breathe you use to fog up a mirror. That close every step of every road ive walked down. He has opened my eyes to true love and beauty, which (i love this lyric from jack johnson) "is found in the trees and not the glass windows." I read the scriptures, and they are just amazing. they prove the truth over and over and over again, FOREVER! meaning the scriptures will always stand up against all other lines of thought! That's freakin something!
SO I divulge all this, out of inspiration from my tea bag that so poignant stated "Your choices WILL change the world." thank you tea bag, and Jesus for ultimately letting me see this!
I just want to think about Jesus. My first love. I want to ponder his outlook, and have it transform my mind. i want to practice love, and honesty. brotherly love, compassion, forgiveness. living in the reality that as i walk (or ride my bike) down the street someone may be healed from a sickness that has kept them from believing in CHrist. I have no idea what could happen, i must go out and live. who knows? i didn't think that today the reality of becoming a dancer in an art gallery, performing for the respect of women everywhere. breaking the chains! so, here we go! pray for me that i may fearlessly make known the gospel of Christ for which i am in chains for. I pray the same thing for you. everyday, that you would look into someone's eyes, with love, and say I love you, because I know real love from Jesus. WE love because HE first loved us. We learn by example in His economy of things. (Praise you Jesus) I also pray that His face would openly SHINE upon you! That LIFE would flow from within you, as you allow it to fill you.
Filled up and running over out of the gRACE of our Saviour Jesus,
Lindsay
I mean I know I am not perfect. Actually I am quite far from perfection... sadly so. But I am content with who I am right now. But besides that, something else that I do know is that God has made us powerful! Our decisions have the ability to create a new world. If you can imagine and decide to pursue something beautiful, healthy, alive and flowing with love... then it may as well become a reality. and it soon will be. My friend, there is one Lover of our souls. His name is Jesus. The reason why it is so important to acknowledge Christ as a reality is because, let's face it, you have a choice. Even though Jesus wasn't a super hot pop icon, He changed this world with his thoughts. He shared His thoughts with people, and some of His thoughts changed the people who listened. If someone told me I could be healed(and i am very ill), and it was through a man who confessed to be God... I would listen to what he had to say, if it seemed to align with my spirit, i would believe what He says. I mean, i might be like Doubting Thomas, but now as a believer, i really believe every word that hung in the air as it left HIS mouth. I believe Jesus is the only way, the real truth, and He gives real life. why? because after 10 years, i have had some time to test Him out. and believe me, I have! He has been One of the only ones to love me NO MATTER WHAT. No matter what has happened, he has been right there. I mean like closer than the breathe you use to fog up a mirror. That close every step of every road ive walked down. He has opened my eyes to true love and beauty, which (i love this lyric from jack johnson) "is found in the trees and not the glass windows." I read the scriptures, and they are just amazing. they prove the truth over and over and over again, FOREVER! meaning the scriptures will always stand up against all other lines of thought! That's freakin something!
SO I divulge all this, out of inspiration from my tea bag that so poignant stated "Your choices WILL change the world." thank you tea bag, and Jesus for ultimately letting me see this!
I just want to think about Jesus. My first love. I want to ponder his outlook, and have it transform my mind. i want to practice love, and honesty. brotherly love, compassion, forgiveness. living in the reality that as i walk (or ride my bike) down the street someone may be healed from a sickness that has kept them from believing in CHrist. I have no idea what could happen, i must go out and live. who knows? i didn't think that today the reality of becoming a dancer in an art gallery, performing for the respect of women everywhere. breaking the chains! so, here we go! pray for me that i may fearlessly make known the gospel of Christ for which i am in chains for. I pray the same thing for you. everyday, that you would look into someone's eyes, with love, and say I love you, because I know real love from Jesus. WE love because HE first loved us. We learn by example in His economy of things. (Praise you Jesus) I also pray that His face would openly SHINE upon you! That LIFE would flow from within you, as you allow it to fill you.
Filled up and running over out of the gRACE of our Saviour Jesus,
Lindsay
Monday, September 07, 2009
Evangelism today: relationships.
Definition of an update:
Update: To know what is going on in Lindsay Brown's world. :)
So, life has been tremendously rewarding! I feel like I married the most amazing man on earth, and each day is filled with presents and the presence of a HOLY God. This last words have weight. heavy weight. when I think about the God of this world, I think of words like
creative.
compassionate.
joyful.
subtle.
glances.
growth.
twinkles.
moments.
smiles.
big smiles.
feasts.
deaths.
beautiful.
serious.
wise. yet child-like joy.
words like depth, length, width and height describe His Love for people. and just the other day when I was at my brothers house, I saw some guys passing out flyers to their church service. Which threw my mind into a contemplative stare, because who has time to go to a church service? and who would want to spend their precious time at a church service these days? im just being honest.
I am not knocking church services. a church service changed my life forever. but i was invited by my sister in law. she knew me. she knew my business. she knew i needed jesus. and she knew she could help. what I was thinking though was "what if one of my neighbors wanted to know about Jesus... would I just invite them to my church? No! of course not, I'd do my best to tell them in our front lawns.
BUT When I first got saved, I used to think that it was the pastors job to tell people about jesus. and it is. But, what about my neighbors who will never go to church, how will they find out? through me. my life. through other people and their lives. not by being invited by a stranger to a church service.
My neighbor Mindy got invited to a church this week. mindy is a jew. she doesn't like to be hassled. she likes the straight up truth. she told me she didnt like this. i said i don't respond well to random people inviting me to religious services either. unless i asked for it, of course. but it made me think of how jesus calls us to be salt and light.
zoila shared with me the other day something she heard about "salt" and how it is used to preserve. To preserve what? God's commands. fear of God. a real genuine relationship with the creator, and the joy and peace one experiences there. to preserve God's glory. God's name. God's honor.
It's comparable to a parent child relationship.
We are babies and God is our parent. He takes great care of us, and we grow up to be adolescents.
Adolescents are trained and bred into winners in the kingdom. We love because He first loved us. He leads by example, and we get to follow.
We learn about marriage, and how a child is presented into a relationship with another human being. these two humans take on the same name. yet they each represent a family name. heritage. they have perserved their family name. which in this case is the name of the Lord.
now this leads me to say, we have been raised in jesus and we live out what we have learned. But what have we really learned? time will always tell the truth. and the tree will always bear the fruit.
fun thoughts about salt! wanna share any?
read a facinating quote the other day by helen keller.
"Life is either a daring adventure or nothing at all."
I love that!
Praise Corner:
1. Dad's health is fantastic!
2. My health was never questionable, but it's great too! just in case you wanted to know :)
3. Jeff and his family are also doing well!
4. things at home are running smoothly and fun! my dad and i have been having fun!
5. Jesus is so compassionate with me, it makes me wanna be absolutely attached to him. nonstop forever!
6. I keep getting fed all of this beautiful info through the scriptures, friends, and reading. :) I love the feeling of learning.
Prayer Requets
1.My friends in Negra, that I would be able to see the Lord's working in their hearts. what a priviledge this would be.
because I know God is stirring them up! :) like a mighty wave knocking down stronghold walls.
2. that i would learn how to deal well with stress and competition.
3. To have wisdom when applying to be certified as a holistic health practioner.
4. That my dad would help me with buying property in costa rica, to build a green treehouse, with a retreat/restoration center. and whatever else God wants. I feel like this is from God, so i would love you to pray about these things with me, and tell me if you have anything to say!
:)
My love!
Lindsay
Update: To know what is going on in Lindsay Brown's world. :)
So, life has been tremendously rewarding! I feel like I married the most amazing man on earth, and each day is filled with presents and the presence of a HOLY God. This last words have weight. heavy weight. when I think about the God of this world, I think of words like
creative.
compassionate.
joyful.
subtle.
glances.
growth.
twinkles.
moments.
smiles.
big smiles.
feasts.
deaths.
beautiful.
serious.
wise. yet child-like joy.
words like depth, length, width and height describe His Love for people. and just the other day when I was at my brothers house, I saw some guys passing out flyers to their church service. Which threw my mind into a contemplative stare, because who has time to go to a church service? and who would want to spend their precious time at a church service these days? im just being honest.
I am not knocking church services. a church service changed my life forever. but i was invited by my sister in law. she knew me. she knew my business. she knew i needed jesus. and she knew she could help. what I was thinking though was "what if one of my neighbors wanted to know about Jesus... would I just invite them to my church? No! of course not, I'd do my best to tell them in our front lawns.
BUT When I first got saved, I used to think that it was the pastors job to tell people about jesus. and it is. But, what about my neighbors who will never go to church, how will they find out? through me. my life. through other people and their lives. not by being invited by a stranger to a church service.
My neighbor Mindy got invited to a church this week. mindy is a jew. she doesn't like to be hassled. she likes the straight up truth. she told me she didnt like this. i said i don't respond well to random people inviting me to religious services either. unless i asked for it, of course. but it made me think of how jesus calls us to be salt and light.
zoila shared with me the other day something she heard about "salt" and how it is used to preserve. To preserve what? God's commands. fear of God. a real genuine relationship with the creator, and the joy and peace one experiences there. to preserve God's glory. God's name. God's honor.
It's comparable to a parent child relationship.
We are babies and God is our parent. He takes great care of us, and we grow up to be adolescents.
Adolescents are trained and bred into winners in the kingdom. We love because He first loved us. He leads by example, and we get to follow.
We learn about marriage, and how a child is presented into a relationship with another human being. these two humans take on the same name. yet they each represent a family name. heritage. they have perserved their family name. which in this case is the name of the Lord.
now this leads me to say, we have been raised in jesus and we live out what we have learned. But what have we really learned? time will always tell the truth. and the tree will always bear the fruit.
fun thoughts about salt! wanna share any?
read a facinating quote the other day by helen keller.
"Life is either a daring adventure or nothing at all."
I love that!
Praise Corner:
1. Dad's health is fantastic!
2. My health was never questionable, but it's great too! just in case you wanted to know :)
3. Jeff and his family are also doing well!
4. things at home are running smoothly and fun! my dad and i have been having fun!
5. Jesus is so compassionate with me, it makes me wanna be absolutely attached to him. nonstop forever!
6. I keep getting fed all of this beautiful info through the scriptures, friends, and reading. :) I love the feeling of learning.
Prayer Requets
1.My friends in Negra, that I would be able to see the Lord's working in their hearts. what a priviledge this would be.
because I know God is stirring them up! :) like a mighty wave knocking down stronghold walls.
2. that i would learn how to deal well with stress and competition.
3. To have wisdom when applying to be certified as a holistic health practioner.
4. That my dad would help me with buying property in costa rica, to build a green treehouse, with a retreat/restoration center. and whatever else God wants. I feel like this is from God, so i would love you to pray about these things with me, and tell me if you have anything to say!
:)
My love!
Lindsay
Saturday, August 22, 2009
ok, so i guess i just need to get some restless poetry out of my system. writing a song didn't quite quench more inspirational thirst. listening to the waves makes me feel lucky. i know i am in this position for a reason, we all have our own paths to take. paths that lead us to people, places and through situations out of our control.
would you regret not telling someone they are beautiful? if you meant it with all your heart, knowing nothing would ever develop? if so, how can one make it meaningful and 'friendly'?
could you live in a small town, where everyone knew everything about you? or do you like the city life of individual personal space?
Staying in Negra, has opened my eyes up in so many ways. i never imagined I could do ANYTHING (almost) i set my mind too. I mean you hear things like " all things are possible with Christ" all the time. but to really feel empowered to do something is a tremendous feeling! I am wondering if God would really allow me to buy a place here, i feel like a shrimp. like i am a super small fish in a big BIG pond. i would really like to build a home, and raise a family here. i am actually super stoked about the whole idea.
i have a few options
1. buy property and or a home to live in.
2. marry a costa rican, so we can make a life here
3. all of the above. :)
Only God knows, but for the moment, i will just sit here and listen to the waves roll in. illbreathe, and enjoy this very second. i will never get another second exactly like this one again. man, i wish you were here.
Thank FULL list!
1. shared the gospel with coco! he totally recieved it!
2. played the guitar a little tonight.
3. went to Tamarindo by ATV. thankful i got to tamarindo, but i dont want to ride on a ATV for a LONGGGGG time!!
4. got a rad hand me down shirt
5. can sit here and listen to the waves. i want this to last forever. i think i am made to live life by the sea.
6. life lasts only moments! and i love them so much! i love everything i am given.
7. soooo thankful for Jesus and His love over me
8. had a piece on homemade keylime pie. :) favorite kind.
9. convinced myself that fatty fruits like mango's , coconuts and nana;s have enough fats to sustain my sweet tooth. :)
blessed beyond anything,
Lindsay
would you regret not telling someone they are beautiful? if you meant it with all your heart, knowing nothing would ever develop? if so, how can one make it meaningful and 'friendly'?
could you live in a small town, where everyone knew everything about you? or do you like the city life of individual personal space?
Staying in Negra, has opened my eyes up in so many ways. i never imagined I could do ANYTHING (almost) i set my mind too. I mean you hear things like " all things are possible with Christ" all the time. but to really feel empowered to do something is a tremendous feeling! I am wondering if God would really allow me to buy a place here, i feel like a shrimp. like i am a super small fish in a big BIG pond. i would really like to build a home, and raise a family here. i am actually super stoked about the whole idea.
i have a few options
1. buy property and or a home to live in.
2. marry a costa rican, so we can make a life here
3. all of the above. :)
Only God knows, but for the moment, i will just sit here and listen to the waves roll in. illbreathe, and enjoy this very second. i will never get another second exactly like this one again. man, i wish you were here.
Thank FULL list!
1. shared the gospel with coco! he totally recieved it!
2. played the guitar a little tonight.
3. went to Tamarindo by ATV. thankful i got to tamarindo, but i dont want to ride on a ATV for a LONGGGGG time!!
4. got a rad hand me down shirt
5. can sit here and listen to the waves. i want this to last forever. i think i am made to live life by the sea.
6. life lasts only moments! and i love them so much! i love everything i am given.
7. soooo thankful for Jesus and His love over me
8. had a piece on homemade keylime pie. :) favorite kind.
9. convinced myself that fatty fruits like mango's , coconuts and nana;s have enough fats to sustain my sweet tooth. :)
blessed beyond anything,
Lindsay
my heart about heart break
"There's one thing i wanted to say, so Ill be brave
you were what I wanted
I gave what I gave
I'm not sorry I met you
I'm not sorry it's over
I'm not sorry there is nothing to save.
Stars
Just reading through some of my old journal entries, I liked these lyrics, and so I finally bought the song. Going to Kon tiki tonight for a farewell dinner.
Peace. Have a wonderful update!!!!
"There's one thing i wanted to say, so Ill be brave
you were what I wanted
I gave what I gave
I'm not sorry I met you
I'm not sorry it's over
I'm not sorry there is nothing to save.
Stars
Just reading through some of my old journal entries, I liked these lyrics, and so I finally bought the song. Going to Kon tiki tonight for a farewell dinner.
Peace. Have a wonderful update!!!!
Friday, August 21, 2009
Mmmm Bop!
Yo! Life is unbelievable. No cell phone, a/c, only the pure nature and yes, internet. :) there is nothing to do with mmmmm bop here. i know you got excited!!!
inspirations from today:
coldplay lyrics: "i saw God come to my garden, but i dont know what He said, for my heart wasn;t open." i wanna be open Lord.
Reading good literature to my children, so they will be brillant.
Lindsay's Corner
life. im so glad it doesnt go the way i plan it. today was another beautiful day. the hours seem to slip away with each passing wave, conversation and walk. i just got home from eating dinner at Christine's house, we talked and caught up on life. shared stories, watched the 7 kids skateboard and bike around the patio. it was priceless. sometimes i just can't wait to be a mother, and hang out with my children. i know they will be so awesome. yea, so that's about it. i mean life. like i said before, i am glad it doesn't always go the way i plan, because then i would miss out on what God wants me to see.
Prayer requests
Johnny, that he would know Jesus is the Living Master. He is very close in his beliefs about spiritual things. but doesn't accept christ as God. Backround: talented surfer, artist and musician. has a 13 year old daughter, is divorced. super sweet. outgoing and personable.
For christine and her family: they are moving back to cali. that they will be able to come back to costa rica soon, and that all the last minute things would be taken care of. esp to sell their van!
For me, that i would wisely invest my resources into something eternal. God would continually walk me through each and every decision, for His recognition.
Thankful List
1. a ride from gaby, which saved me like an hours walk!
2. dinner @ Christine's. I have no more cash... i'm living on faith!! haha i love it like this. God always provides!
3. Th new shirt i got from Christine's hand-me-downs.
4. having a heavy duty green smoothie
5. seeing a humongous tranchula!! zoila, be glad you weren't there.
6. being around the kids
7. being able to be myself around God, and feel fully accepted and embraced.
8. having a clay facial
9. having 5 bananas to eat :) yummy...
10 seeing camilla this morning.
11 got invited to eat with Lucia. she teaches in an indigenious village in Argentina, and she said i can go and teach dance there.
12 learning that the number 8 means "new beginnings" and the number 9 means "judgement upon your actions" also fruitfulness.
So ill be seeing you in a few days... less than 2 weeks. i am pretty stoked to return, because i know God has a reason for everything. so, thanks for following with me these past couple weeks. summed up in one word, that is to describe my trip;
Nurtured.
Be nurturers of the Lord.
In peace,
Lindsay
inspirations from today:
coldplay lyrics: "i saw God come to my garden, but i dont know what He said, for my heart wasn;t open." i wanna be open Lord.
Reading good literature to my children, so they will be brillant.
Lindsay's Corner
life. im so glad it doesnt go the way i plan it. today was another beautiful day. the hours seem to slip away with each passing wave, conversation and walk. i just got home from eating dinner at Christine's house, we talked and caught up on life. shared stories, watched the 7 kids skateboard and bike around the patio. it was priceless. sometimes i just can't wait to be a mother, and hang out with my children. i know they will be so awesome. yea, so that's about it. i mean life. like i said before, i am glad it doesn't always go the way i plan, because then i would miss out on what God wants me to see.
Prayer requests
Johnny, that he would know Jesus is the Living Master. He is very close in his beliefs about spiritual things. but doesn't accept christ as God. Backround: talented surfer, artist and musician. has a 13 year old daughter, is divorced. super sweet. outgoing and personable.
For christine and her family: they are moving back to cali. that they will be able to come back to costa rica soon, and that all the last minute things would be taken care of. esp to sell their van!
For me, that i would wisely invest my resources into something eternal. God would continually walk me through each and every decision, for His recognition.
Thankful List
1. a ride from gaby, which saved me like an hours walk!
2. dinner @ Christine's. I have no more cash... i'm living on faith!! haha i love it like this. God always provides!
3. Th new shirt i got from Christine's hand-me-downs.
4. having a heavy duty green smoothie
5. seeing a humongous tranchula!! zoila, be glad you weren't there.
6. being around the kids
7. being able to be myself around God, and feel fully accepted and embraced.
8. having a clay facial
9. having 5 bananas to eat :) yummy...
10 seeing camilla this morning.
11 got invited to eat with Lucia. she teaches in an indigenious village in Argentina, and she said i can go and teach dance there.
12 learning that the number 8 means "new beginnings" and the number 9 means "judgement upon your actions" also fruitfulness.
So ill be seeing you in a few days... less than 2 weeks. i am pretty stoked to return, because i know God has a reason for everything. so, thanks for following with me these past couple weeks. summed up in one word, that is to describe my trip;
Nurtured.
Be nurturers of the Lord.
In peace,
Lindsay
Monday, August 17, 2009
wanna know what's going on? :)
45 minutes ago i was watching "Endless Summer" in my little room. but i saw that the sun was beginning to set, so i jumped out of bed, slipped my sneakers on, threw a water bottle in my bag and jetted down the stairs en route to the beach. watching the sun set is like watching the nightly news. it's essential. it's the closing of another day. the ending to a day that will never happen again.
for instance...
zoila and robbie will never leave me at Playa Negra again :(
i won't be totted around on the back of coco's atv looking at properties the same way i did today.
won't wear my bathing suit for the 2nd time in my bathing suits life.
won't mistake a firefly for an airplane.
but you never know what life will bring to you... it's full of wonderfully satisfying surprises. i was telling phil today, that in high school, i was highly disciplined. i thought i was going to dance in a professional company. not, i look at my life, and it's opposite of disciplined. i do whatever i want, when i want. (within reason) and it's highly unpredictable. i mean for the most part i will stay in negra and surf everyday until i leave. but other than that, who knows what adventure surprise lies ahead?
But tonight I found myself wishing for more. a life that's greener. one where i am with all my friends, in the place of my dreams, with the man of my dreams, and im smiling so flippin big, and it lasts FOREVER! i guess im describing our wedding day to Jesus, huh? haha no, but seriously, after z and rob left, i felt a little homesick for the first time. i didn't help that it rained most of the day, leaving me inside to watch movies. :/ im not a movie buff... but endless summer is definitely a must.
things i am totally 100% thankful for in my life RIGHT NOW!
1. writing all this stuff down, especially the part about mistaking a fire fly for an airplane. it reminds me of the simplicity of life here. airplanes don't fly over these parts. simple as that.
2. i just enjoyed my monthly candy bar. milky way. haha
3. the waves are pounding really hard right now, and i can hear it from here. i love the way waves sound, because i fond it so unbelievable that i am in such a beautiful place.
4. blood is joyfully running through my body, and my body is perfectly still.
5. i feel loved by God in a big way.
6. Anything is possible, if you truly want it to be. i want to build a big treehouse one day in a beautiful place that has perfect waves, so i can surf whenever i want to.
7. That I can sit and just think about life. truly ask myself important questions. make important decisions. or listen to the crickets, and the waves make a musical melody.
8. i am single and i can do anything i feel God wants me to do.
i'm so sorry, i forget people read this, i am sure you may have scanned through all the things i said i was thankful for. i probably would too. i just got lost in writing it. ive been exercising my thankful muscles, because it keeps the flabby depression thoughts away :)
well, buenas noches mis amigos.
for instance...
zoila and robbie will never leave me at Playa Negra again :(
i won't be totted around on the back of coco's atv looking at properties the same way i did today.
won't wear my bathing suit for the 2nd time in my bathing suits life.
won't mistake a firefly for an airplane.
but you never know what life will bring to you... it's full of wonderfully satisfying surprises. i was telling phil today, that in high school, i was highly disciplined. i thought i was going to dance in a professional company. not, i look at my life, and it's opposite of disciplined. i do whatever i want, when i want. (within reason) and it's highly unpredictable. i mean for the most part i will stay in negra and surf everyday until i leave. but other than that, who knows what adventure surprise lies ahead?
But tonight I found myself wishing for more. a life that's greener. one where i am with all my friends, in the place of my dreams, with the man of my dreams, and im smiling so flippin big, and it lasts FOREVER! i guess im describing our wedding day to Jesus, huh? haha no, but seriously, after z and rob left, i felt a little homesick for the first time. i didn't help that it rained most of the day, leaving me inside to watch movies. :/ im not a movie buff... but endless summer is definitely a must.
things i am totally 100% thankful for in my life RIGHT NOW!
1. writing all this stuff down, especially the part about mistaking a fire fly for an airplane. it reminds me of the simplicity of life here. airplanes don't fly over these parts. simple as that.
2. i just enjoyed my monthly candy bar. milky way. haha
3. the waves are pounding really hard right now, and i can hear it from here. i love the way waves sound, because i fond it so unbelievable that i am in such a beautiful place.
4. blood is joyfully running through my body, and my body is perfectly still.
5. i feel loved by God in a big way.
6. Anything is possible, if you truly want it to be. i want to build a big treehouse one day in a beautiful place that has perfect waves, so i can surf whenever i want to.
7. That I can sit and just think about life. truly ask myself important questions. make important decisions. or listen to the crickets, and the waves make a musical melody.
8. i am single and i can do anything i feel God wants me to do.
i'm so sorry, i forget people read this, i am sure you may have scanned through all the things i said i was thankful for. i probably would too. i just got lost in writing it. ive been exercising my thankful muscles, because it keeps the flabby depression thoughts away :)
well, buenas noches mis amigos.
Saturday, August 15, 2009
reflections on robie and zoila's vacation
Hey family and friends,
I haven't updated in a few days, but life has steadily been going... so excitingly!
I do have some prayer requests please! :)
1. I feel a little weak inside my spirit concerning temptation. I am chosing to remember to keep my Spirit focused on her lover, Christ. Pray for me, that every other idol, myself and/or others (the flesh) would utterly fail me, and my hope would be steadfast and expectant upon Jesus, and His promises over my life. :)
Praises:
I have some funny highlights since Robbie and Zoila have came! Highlight number 1:
1. RIVER CROSSING::
so, we are driving home from the airport in our rental car. to save some money i told robbie and zoila not to get a 4X4, but a compact vehicle. We get a peugot! For the record, the streets here are a step better than a well-worn beaten path, notheless, we are putt-putting around the guanacaste region looking for casa papaya. "This doesn't look right" i declare, as we drive down a terribly bumpy road. then the gps automated voice warns us that there is a "river crossing up ahead, 4X4 vehicles only" ...
we look at the large "river crossing" ahead with no expectations. But I know what the others are thinking... "what in the world are we going to do now?" so, robbie and I get out of the car, to see how deep the river actually is. Rob throws a rock, and a huge kaplunk! I throw some also, and we know this is going to be deep. Oh man, adventure is glorious! Zoila is in the car biting her tongue... mama wasn't happy!
So Rob gets back into the car and i stay on the bank to steer him as close to the edge as possible. with our confidence and faith, and basically no other choice, the car is sucessfully driven through the river!! mission accomplished: memory made, and noone got hurt! pphhhfew!
What I loved about this experience was that I felt like Joshua when he went into the promised land. To him, the giants we not that big. To me the river crossing was a mere puddle. I was such a brave moment. I cherish this memory.
2. Zoila, randomly hitting herself in the face (bugs!). and her movie comments to perfectly for our current situations. unbelievable!!!
3. searching for monkey every morning! we finally found 2 this morning, they are so stinkin cute!
4. Eating. our eating together has been so relaxing, we just totally unwind, and relax. it's so special, I want to eat like this every single day of my life! it's so precious and nutritious.
5. our long car rides. everywhere is a journey. it's time we use to talk about all kinds of things.
So, basically, each day has been filled with some unplanned excitement, better than i could imagine! there have been some bumps, but all in all, i couldn't ask for a better time. seriously. i love having time to look at the trees, and read God's word about the Kingdom of God. see how a small mustard seed grows into a huge tree. how a little yeast, goes a long long way. if you just have a little faith, it grows into a huge garden of love...
We concluded that our time was going to be remembered as tree time. May God continue to grow your roots deep into the soil of His love for you. He believes in you!
Your sister,
Lindsay
I haven't updated in a few days, but life has steadily been going... so excitingly!
I do have some prayer requests please! :)
1. I feel a little weak inside my spirit concerning temptation. I am chosing to remember to keep my Spirit focused on her lover, Christ. Pray for me, that every other idol, myself and/or others (the flesh) would utterly fail me, and my hope would be steadfast and expectant upon Jesus, and His promises over my life. :)
Praises:
I have some funny highlights since Robbie and Zoila have came! Highlight number 1:
1. RIVER CROSSING::
so, we are driving home from the airport in our rental car. to save some money i told robbie and zoila not to get a 4X4, but a compact vehicle. We get a peugot! For the record, the streets here are a step better than a well-worn beaten path, notheless, we are putt-putting around the guanacaste region looking for casa papaya. "This doesn't look right" i declare, as we drive down a terribly bumpy road. then the gps automated voice warns us that there is a "river crossing up ahead, 4X4 vehicles only" ...
we look at the large "river crossing" ahead with no expectations. But I know what the others are thinking... "what in the world are we going to do now?" so, robbie and I get out of the car, to see how deep the river actually is. Rob throws a rock, and a huge kaplunk! I throw some also, and we know this is going to be deep. Oh man, adventure is glorious! Zoila is in the car biting her tongue... mama wasn't happy!
So Rob gets back into the car and i stay on the bank to steer him as close to the edge as possible. with our confidence and faith, and basically no other choice, the car is sucessfully driven through the river!! mission accomplished: memory made, and noone got hurt! pphhhfew!
What I loved about this experience was that I felt like Joshua when he went into the promised land. To him, the giants we not that big. To me the river crossing was a mere puddle. I was such a brave moment. I cherish this memory.
2. Zoila, randomly hitting herself in the face (bugs!). and her movie comments to perfectly for our current situations. unbelievable!!!
3. searching for monkey every morning! we finally found 2 this morning, they are so stinkin cute!
4. Eating. our eating together has been so relaxing, we just totally unwind, and relax. it's so special, I want to eat like this every single day of my life! it's so precious and nutritious.
5. our long car rides. everywhere is a journey. it's time we use to talk about all kinds of things.
So, basically, each day has been filled with some unplanned excitement, better than i could imagine! there have been some bumps, but all in all, i couldn't ask for a better time. seriously. i love having time to look at the trees, and read God's word about the Kingdom of God. see how a small mustard seed grows into a huge tree. how a little yeast, goes a long long way. if you just have a little faith, it grows into a huge garden of love...
We concluded that our time was going to be remembered as tree time. May God continue to grow your roots deep into the soil of His love for you. He believes in you!
Your sister,
Lindsay
Sunday, August 09, 2009
can it be any more precious?
i just might as well be in heaven. except for the dog scratching its flea right by me! haha
Just checking in.
Daily Activities:
surfed.
made friends with diego.
ate a fat burrito and shared it with pamela.
daydreamed about love
meditated about what I want my relationship with God to look like
got accidentally kissed on the mouth! haha i wish it would of been jeron! haha j/k
laughed at a pack of boys beating each other up.
I have concluded that i have some goals: explanation: at first i thought my goal was only to cultivate meaningful relationships. but then i realized with further introspection that i want a colorful relationship with my Creator. A relationship filled with lively language, places, and people.
why is identifying goals important? because having a goal enables you to make better, faster and more confident decisions toward something you want.
Story Time:
Like today, i went to enjoy the sun falling asleep, but instead got to build a sand castle with a 5 year old. she told me she had a dream about a princess who had crocodiles. i asked her if the princess was scared of the crocs, she said "nope" without even a second thought.
Dude, how amazing is it that we have the ability to change our thoughts, and center them on truth. Are crocodiles scary? not if you grew up swimming in the same waters as them.
i love a wild sense of adventure. today when i was surfing, i was being "taught" by diego a tico. he isn't scared of crocodiles either. in fact, he calls them beautiful. to me, they freak me out. but now im thinking, if these people aren't that afraid of these nasty crocs, then why should i be afraid? so, i'm not that scared anymore. :)
But seriously, right now i am chilling outside on the balcony of casa papaya, which is a beautiful 3 story house. im listening to the night sing me a lullaby. i can hear the waves rolling in the distance. sometimes it's soft, and right now it's roaring!! i don''t ever want this trip to end. i can't believe it has been about a month already! so much has happened and nothing has happened all at the same time.
well, i don't want you to fall asleep as well.
so if you're praying for me, thanks! i need it.
here are a few things im mulling over and chatting with God about now.
1. patience to wait for the man God has predestined me to share life with. i'm pretty stoked about getting married.
2. my dad to get his passport and have a chance to fly here by the end of aug.
3 robbie and zoila to forget what time it is when they arrive, and have an unforgettably relaxing time!
4. trust in God with the tiniest details of my life. He keeps whispering in my spirit, trust me. trusting is adventurous, you never know what may come your way!
i praise God because He breathes meaning into every moment. nature and everything around me, embraces me, because God embraces me. life moves freely from one frame to the next without hesitation or fear. because everything has it's place to show me God's heart and love over his loved ones.
it's crazy for me to think that the world revolves around the God who loves me. and at His command, hearts start to beat and things begin to breathe! im so thankful His my dad, i wanna be just like him. :)
Thanks for reading my rambles, hope they were as enjoyable to read as they were to think about!
Love you!
Just checking in.
Daily Activities:
surfed.
made friends with diego.
ate a fat burrito and shared it with pamela.
daydreamed about love
meditated about what I want my relationship with God to look like
got accidentally kissed on the mouth! haha i wish it would of been jeron! haha j/k
laughed at a pack of boys beating each other up.
I have concluded that i have some goals: explanation: at first i thought my goal was only to cultivate meaningful relationships. but then i realized with further introspection that i want a colorful relationship with my Creator. A relationship filled with lively language, places, and people.
why is identifying goals important? because having a goal enables you to make better, faster and more confident decisions toward something you want.
Story Time:
Like today, i went to enjoy the sun falling asleep, but instead got to build a sand castle with a 5 year old. she told me she had a dream about a princess who had crocodiles. i asked her if the princess was scared of the crocs, she said "nope" without even a second thought.
Dude, how amazing is it that we have the ability to change our thoughts, and center them on truth. Are crocodiles scary? not if you grew up swimming in the same waters as them.
i love a wild sense of adventure. today when i was surfing, i was being "taught" by diego a tico. he isn't scared of crocodiles either. in fact, he calls them beautiful. to me, they freak me out. but now im thinking, if these people aren't that afraid of these nasty crocs, then why should i be afraid? so, i'm not that scared anymore. :)
But seriously, right now i am chilling outside on the balcony of casa papaya, which is a beautiful 3 story house. im listening to the night sing me a lullaby. i can hear the waves rolling in the distance. sometimes it's soft, and right now it's roaring!! i don''t ever want this trip to end. i can't believe it has been about a month already! so much has happened and nothing has happened all at the same time.
well, i don't want you to fall asleep as well.
so if you're praying for me, thanks! i need it.
here are a few things im mulling over and chatting with God about now.
1. patience to wait for the man God has predestined me to share life with. i'm pretty stoked about getting married.
2. my dad to get his passport and have a chance to fly here by the end of aug.
3 robbie and zoila to forget what time it is when they arrive, and have an unforgettably relaxing time!
4. trust in God with the tiniest details of my life. He keeps whispering in my spirit, trust me. trusting is adventurous, you never know what may come your way!
i praise God because He breathes meaning into every moment. nature and everything around me, embraces me, because God embraces me. life moves freely from one frame to the next without hesitation or fear. because everything has it's place to show me God's heart and love over his loved ones.
it's crazy for me to think that the world revolves around the God who loves me. and at His command, hearts start to beat and things begin to breathe! im so thankful His my dad, i wanna be just like him. :)
Thanks for reading my rambles, hope they were as enjoyable to read as they were to think about!
Love you!
Saturday, August 08, 2009
yo this flesh is gnarly
dude,
i am so excited to be trying to live in the spirt by putting to death my fleshly desires:
keep me in your prayers, because i need God's Almighty strength to keep me running, filled up and brimming over with His Spirit. I want more than anything to be a simple mighty vessel bringing God' s kingdom.
Surfing Update:
today, i went surfing most of the day, and had a wonderful time! the first part of it i was alone, and i was doing really well. i stood up a bunch of times, the waves were perfect, and small enough for me to ride! whoa! God God for making waves... He is amazing!
then forest and the kids came out to play. and we all did another session together. again, the waves were breaking perfectly! it was tremendous! i had a perfect day today.
Jeronimo Update:
i saw him surfing today on sandy beach. i didn't talk to him because i was chatting with the kids and forest.
but i saw him when i was walking, so i decided i should atleast say hello. i did, and we talked about surfing, i asked him if he believed in God and he said "no, not really." we talked some more about life stuff, then it started to rain. he drove me home with a truck full of surfers and that was it. well, not all of it. he invited me to a party tonight, but i prayed about it, and i don't think i should go. something in my spirit was saying "no, do not go!" so i decided to obey. i think my Spirit is warning me of a potential pitfall! Thank you Jesus! I am so excited to obey, for 2 reasons.
1. i'm avoiding unnecessary heart pain and drama, better for both of us.
2. only God understands the full picture right now, and my goal is to listen and obey joyfully. he knows what i want, and He will give it to me when He sees fit.
so, i know God is operating out of love for me, and I praise Him for that! Other than my parents, noone has ever loved me so unconditionally and perfectly. so i will yeild to my husband, and trust that this is His gentle protection over my heart, a well spring of life!
Kids Dance Classes:
We are having our first dance show on Tuesday @ 5pm. :) It's going to be held here at Casa Papaya. the girls will be dancing 4 dance numbers. 2 ballet 2 hip-hop.
I will also be guest starring and doing a dance called "you are for me" haha
pray for us to have an encouraging response to make the girls love dancing, and i hope everyone loves me too!! :)
Updates and Praises!!
Zoila and Robbie are coming into town!! Whoa-hoo!! pray for us to have a wonderful and beautifully peaceful time! I am so excited about their arrival! i will be taking a bus to Santa Cruz solo, so pray for me as well!
Dad is doing well. I have been telling him all these wonderful things about buying a piece of property here. I think it would be a great investment, i am just hoping he will lend me the money to buy it! pray for me to remain calm and at peace during this entire process.
Lindsay: I am doing well also. been super contemplative. thinking about
life: and how to successfully handle emotions
love: today i thought what if i wanted to be married to this guy jeron, would God be mad at me? and i opened up the scriptures to the perfect answer.
13 "My people have committed two sins:
They have forsaken me,
the spring of living water,
and have dug their own cisterns,
broken cisterns that cannot hold water.
dude, if I really believe God is my husband, then I want to let him provide for me. He knows what I want. so me marrying any non-believer would be me "digging my own cistern, a broken one that can't hold water!" how friggin heart breaking is that? to do it ourself and say "i dont need you Lord" not to forget i would be forgetting about my husband, and all the AMAZING life giving water he has provided for me. Every day! Yesterday, I didn't spend any time with God really, but he gave me everything! Food, shelter, clothing, peace, friends, an amazing dinner, a time to build a friendship. Our saviour is so gracious, patient, gentlemen-like yet jealous as hell. dude, i dont want to mess with the flesh, when the Spirit is so perfect. but that humbles me too, because i know what I am, but God lives in me, and i keep my attention there, the best i can, so that i won't sin against Him.
Thanks for reading, yet another one of my blags!!
i am so excited to be trying to live in the spirt by putting to death my fleshly desires:
keep me in your prayers, because i need God's Almighty strength to keep me running, filled up and brimming over with His Spirit. I want more than anything to be a simple mighty vessel bringing God' s kingdom.
Surfing Update:
today, i went surfing most of the day, and had a wonderful time! the first part of it i was alone, and i was doing really well. i stood up a bunch of times, the waves were perfect, and small enough for me to ride! whoa! God God for making waves... He is amazing!
then forest and the kids came out to play. and we all did another session together. again, the waves were breaking perfectly! it was tremendous! i had a perfect day today.
Jeronimo Update:
i saw him surfing today on sandy beach. i didn't talk to him because i was chatting with the kids and forest.
but i saw him when i was walking, so i decided i should atleast say hello. i did, and we talked about surfing, i asked him if he believed in God and he said "no, not really." we talked some more about life stuff, then it started to rain. he drove me home with a truck full of surfers and that was it. well, not all of it. he invited me to a party tonight, but i prayed about it, and i don't think i should go. something in my spirit was saying "no, do not go!" so i decided to obey. i think my Spirit is warning me of a potential pitfall! Thank you Jesus! I am so excited to obey, for 2 reasons.
1. i'm avoiding unnecessary heart pain and drama, better for both of us.
2. only God understands the full picture right now, and my goal is to listen and obey joyfully. he knows what i want, and He will give it to me when He sees fit.
so, i know God is operating out of love for me, and I praise Him for that! Other than my parents, noone has ever loved me so unconditionally and perfectly. so i will yeild to my husband, and trust that this is His gentle protection over my heart, a well spring of life!
Kids Dance Classes:
We are having our first dance show on Tuesday @ 5pm. :) It's going to be held here at Casa Papaya. the girls will be dancing 4 dance numbers. 2 ballet 2 hip-hop.
I will also be guest starring and doing a dance called "you are for me" haha
pray for us to have an encouraging response to make the girls love dancing, and i hope everyone loves me too!! :)
Updates and Praises!!
Zoila and Robbie are coming into town!! Whoa-hoo!! pray for us to have a wonderful and beautifully peaceful time! I am so excited about their arrival! i will be taking a bus to Santa Cruz solo, so pray for me as well!
Dad is doing well. I have been telling him all these wonderful things about buying a piece of property here. I think it would be a great investment, i am just hoping he will lend me the money to buy it! pray for me to remain calm and at peace during this entire process.
Lindsay: I am doing well also. been super contemplative. thinking about
life: and how to successfully handle emotions
love: today i thought what if i wanted to be married to this guy jeron, would God be mad at me? and i opened up the scriptures to the perfect answer.
13 "My people have committed two sins:
They have forsaken me,
the spring of living water,
and have dug their own cisterns,
broken cisterns that cannot hold water.
dude, if I really believe God is my husband, then I want to let him provide for me. He knows what I want. so me marrying any non-believer would be me "digging my own cistern, a broken one that can't hold water!" how friggin heart breaking is that? to do it ourself and say "i dont need you Lord" not to forget i would be forgetting about my husband, and all the AMAZING life giving water he has provided for me. Every day! Yesterday, I didn't spend any time with God really, but he gave me everything! Food, shelter, clothing, peace, friends, an amazing dinner, a time to build a friendship. Our saviour is so gracious, patient, gentlemen-like yet jealous as hell. dude, i dont want to mess with the flesh, when the Spirit is so perfect. but that humbles me too, because i know what I am, but God lives in me, and i keep my attention there, the best i can, so that i won't sin against Him.
Thanks for reading, yet another one of my blags!!
Friday, August 07, 2009
Lindsay regains her focus
it's been quite a crazy few days!! My original goal for coming here to costa rica, was to focus all my attention on Christ, learn some more spanish and surfing.
if i were to rate it...
time spent with Christ: 85%
learning spanish: 45% most people know english
surfing: 30%
so what have i been doing mostly? oh, that's easy! DREAMING! i do WAY too much of this!
But I have come up with some pretty raw ideas!
for example: number 1: found a piece of land near the beach, now i wanna build a treehouse on it one day! i am seriously praying about this and looking into different ways i can get the money to buy this land. i dream of having that treehouse, so all my friends can come and hang out with me. we can listen to the wind blowing through the trees. i will grow my own garden with great, clean food. we'll have a fire pit in the middle and lie around in hammocks reading books. it's going to be called "brillante: the eagles nest sanctuary" something like that. it's going to be a place where people come for healing and rest and to unwind from the rat race. this is how my experience has been since i have been here, and i would like others to experience it as well. i feel like this is the way life is to be lived. working hard during the day to have food on the table at night, but also having a place you love and enjoy. most importantly, with people you love and care about. how do i convince all my friends to come here with me? i dont know yet, i guess ill just invite them and let them see for themselves.
i guess this dream will take a while to fulfill, but i am excited, because it will be an art project for me, as well as an investment for the future
so yeah, i have been dreaming a lot lately. as well as being distracted by guys! there are so many dudes, i can see how the enemy can strategically tempt me in this area.
i do think one thing is interesting as i process, not hanging out with a guy alone stuff.
1. how in the world am i ever going to meet a dude? it seems so impossible! if i dont hang out with a guy alone ever as a friend, i won't get that close. but you know what? it has to be better than hanging out with a man, and becoming attached and then feeling heart broken when it ends. anything is better than that! and i was on the beach today thinking. "God must have kept me single for this long, to allow me to finally be thankful for it!" i can finally say i am so happy being single, i have such freedom! freedom to do whatever i want to! how come i wasn't enjoying this before? dude, if you are single and you are reading this, start thinking of all the things you can do, because you are single. God wants you to be content in every situation life gives to you. you have to choose to be excited about your singleness, so do it! not only will it make you more enjoyable to be around, but others will want to be around you as well. Look who is talking like an expert all of a sudden!? but, im just talking through my own experience. i am soo thankful that i am being spared from all the heart break drama that comes with dating.
speaking of... here is my victory!!
Jeronimo Update:
I was suppost to see him surf yesterday, but was intercepted (thankfully) on the way there by a couple from the church. So, i have yet to introduce the Jeronimo character to my blog. He's a drop dead gorgeous surfer guy here. he grew up here, but is originally from peru. anyways, one night a couple of us went to his parents restaurant and he was our waiter. we casually talked afterwards, no big deal. the end of that night. a few nights later, we went to this awesome party for a recycling fund raiser. he was there, and we danced the whole night together. i found out some stuff i didnt particularly care for, and again. all casual, no big deal. the end of that night. so again we ran into each other at another gathering, and there we talked a little more and thats when we made casual plans to surf together. so thats when i got intercepted by the couple from the church, i was on my way to the beach to surf with him! im really glad i made the choice not to hang out alone with him, because when i went down to the beach today he was macking with a different girl! haha funny funny
Lindsay's men analysis:
men make me laugh! i wish i understood just how a guy choses a lady. to me it seems like they try every apple in the whole barrel, and when they are ready to marry, the one who is most like their mother, is the one they marry. am i crazy? maybe that's just how i see it. haha seriously, i just know God is making me into His beautiful bride, and we'll see what comes and when it comes. life is easy and its a beauty when its lived in the reality of having Christ as your husband.
Horray for scripture! and God help me!
Thanks for reading! You are so precious and beautiful! sooo precious AND beautiful!
if i were to rate it...
time spent with Christ: 85%
learning spanish: 45% most people know english
surfing: 30%
so what have i been doing mostly? oh, that's easy! DREAMING! i do WAY too much of this!
But I have come up with some pretty raw ideas!
for example: number 1: found a piece of land near the beach, now i wanna build a treehouse on it one day! i am seriously praying about this and looking into different ways i can get the money to buy this land. i dream of having that treehouse, so all my friends can come and hang out with me. we can listen to the wind blowing through the trees. i will grow my own garden with great, clean food. we'll have a fire pit in the middle and lie around in hammocks reading books. it's going to be called "brillante: the eagles nest sanctuary" something like that. it's going to be a place where people come for healing and rest and to unwind from the rat race. this is how my experience has been since i have been here, and i would like others to experience it as well. i feel like this is the way life is to be lived. working hard during the day to have food on the table at night, but also having a place you love and enjoy. most importantly, with people you love and care about. how do i convince all my friends to come here with me? i dont know yet, i guess ill just invite them and let them see for themselves.
i guess this dream will take a while to fulfill, but i am excited, because it will be an art project for me, as well as an investment for the future
so yeah, i have been dreaming a lot lately. as well as being distracted by guys! there are so many dudes, i can see how the enemy can strategically tempt me in this area.
i do think one thing is interesting as i process, not hanging out with a guy alone stuff.
1. how in the world am i ever going to meet a dude? it seems so impossible! if i dont hang out with a guy alone ever as a friend, i won't get that close. but you know what? it has to be better than hanging out with a man, and becoming attached and then feeling heart broken when it ends. anything is better than that! and i was on the beach today thinking. "God must have kept me single for this long, to allow me to finally be thankful for it!" i can finally say i am so happy being single, i have such freedom! freedom to do whatever i want to! how come i wasn't enjoying this before? dude, if you are single and you are reading this, start thinking of all the things you can do, because you are single. God wants you to be content in every situation life gives to you. you have to choose to be excited about your singleness, so do it! not only will it make you more enjoyable to be around, but others will want to be around you as well. Look who is talking like an expert all of a sudden!? but, im just talking through my own experience. i am soo thankful that i am being spared from all the heart break drama that comes with dating.
speaking of... here is my victory!!
Jeronimo Update:
I was suppost to see him surf yesterday, but was intercepted (thankfully) on the way there by a couple from the church. So, i have yet to introduce the Jeronimo character to my blog. He's a drop dead gorgeous surfer guy here. he grew up here, but is originally from peru. anyways, one night a couple of us went to his parents restaurant and he was our waiter. we casually talked afterwards, no big deal. the end of that night. a few nights later, we went to this awesome party for a recycling fund raiser. he was there, and we danced the whole night together. i found out some stuff i didnt particularly care for, and again. all casual, no big deal. the end of that night. so again we ran into each other at another gathering, and there we talked a little more and thats when we made casual plans to surf together. so thats when i got intercepted by the couple from the church, i was on my way to the beach to surf with him! im really glad i made the choice not to hang out alone with him, because when i went down to the beach today he was macking with a different girl! haha funny funny
Lindsay's men analysis:
men make me laugh! i wish i understood just how a guy choses a lady. to me it seems like they try every apple in the whole barrel, and when they are ready to marry, the one who is most like their mother, is the one they marry. am i crazy? maybe that's just how i see it. haha seriously, i just know God is making me into His beautiful bride, and we'll see what comes and when it comes. life is easy and its a beauty when its lived in the reality of having Christ as your husband.
Horray for scripture! and God help me!
Thanks for reading! You are so precious and beautiful! sooo precious AND beautiful!
Wednesday, August 05, 2009
would you come to a summer dance program in costa rica?
if i were to host a summer dance program in costa rica, with 3 classes a day. Ballet, Pointe, Modern, Hip-hop and Lyrical. Surf in the morning, classes in the afternoon, bible studies in the evening.
Do you think i could get a lot of students to come to this? I would have to audition students and only the advanced dancer would be considered.
we could have missions adventures to nicaraqua, ministering to the people who live in the dumps.
and they girls in the program could teach classes to the little children here in exchange for community service hours.
4-6 weeks
guest teachers
possible performance opportunity for the community
this sounds like a dream come true for me!
How can i make this a reality? any suggestions?
Do you think i could get a lot of students to come to this? I would have to audition students and only the advanced dancer would be considered.
we could have missions adventures to nicaraqua, ministering to the people who live in the dumps.
and they girls in the program could teach classes to the little children here in exchange for community service hours.
4-6 weeks
guest teachers
possible performance opportunity for the community
this sounds like a dream come true for me!
How can i make this a reality? any suggestions?
Saturday, August 01, 2009
world surf competition= cautious Linds
Hey fam.
So here is the deal. little did i know upon my arrival here in costa rica, that there would be the world championship surf competition at the same time. and the time is now! its probably happening as you read this. people from all over the world come and compete in all different catagories. (i wanna see the tandem surfers!)
so anywho, the xtian surfer are there to represent. so please pray for the harvest to be like the waves, plentiful!! they played a film called "walking on water" and it presents the gospel 100%. one day every knee will know He's it! the Christ. why not today?
but yeah, i am taking the trip to Jaco/hermosa beach tomorrow (sunday) and will be sleeping on the beach at night. apparently its very common to have stuff stolen. so, i need extra protection in that arena. as well as in another. traveling with me is a couple, a 2 other dudes. i have a feeling one of them may like me. :/ and i dont like this feeling. but it's a time i get to shine in Christ. and explain howcome i have decided not to date, and want to develop healthful friendships, shared memories and truthful conversations. this makes me excited!
so 2 things, no 3 to pray for;)
1. safety to and fro jaco/hermosa
2. healthy relationships, embracing the ackwardness to creatively create an environment of truth and light.
3. this property my dad and i are looking at buying here. for God's will, and for peace in which ever way!
so, i will be gone till tuesday and ill let you know how it goes then! much love!
Oh wait: 1 more thing...
dude, i just danced at a local party for the past 3 hours! it was SUPER fun! ill confess there was a very handsome dude there (Z it was Jeronimo! haha), and i met him before, we danced together a lot! i was excited about dancing with him, because he is extremely outgoing and dances well. but he also was stoned and drunk. ;/ i love meeting people, because each story is beautifully different! how terrific!
so, if YOU have a prayer request about anything please let a sista know! hope all is well. give me stories, give me laughs, give me a little piece of your heart! j/k but would absolutly LOVE to hear what you are up too. so send me a quick update!
Love you!
Lindsay
So here is the deal. little did i know upon my arrival here in costa rica, that there would be the world championship surf competition at the same time. and the time is now! its probably happening as you read this. people from all over the world come and compete in all different catagories. (i wanna see the tandem surfers!)
so anywho, the xtian surfer are there to represent. so please pray for the harvest to be like the waves, plentiful!! they played a film called "walking on water" and it presents the gospel 100%. one day every knee will know He's it! the Christ. why not today?
but yeah, i am taking the trip to Jaco/hermosa beach tomorrow (sunday) and will be sleeping on the beach at night. apparently its very common to have stuff stolen. so, i need extra protection in that arena. as well as in another. traveling with me is a couple, a 2 other dudes. i have a feeling one of them may like me. :/ and i dont like this feeling. but it's a time i get to shine in Christ. and explain howcome i have decided not to date, and want to develop healthful friendships, shared memories and truthful conversations. this makes me excited!
so 2 things, no 3 to pray for;)
1. safety to and fro jaco/hermosa
2. healthy relationships, embracing the ackwardness to creatively create an environment of truth and light.
3. this property my dad and i are looking at buying here. for God's will, and for peace in which ever way!
so, i will be gone till tuesday and ill let you know how it goes then! much love!
Oh wait: 1 more thing...
dude, i just danced at a local party for the past 3 hours! it was SUPER fun! ill confess there was a very handsome dude there (Z it was Jeronimo! haha), and i met him before, we danced together a lot! i was excited about dancing with him, because he is extremely outgoing and dances well. but he also was stoned and drunk. ;/ i love meeting people, because each story is beautifully different! how terrific!
so, if YOU have a prayer request about anything please let a sista know! hope all is well. give me stories, give me laughs, give me a little piece of your heart! j/k but would absolutly LOVE to hear what you are up too. so send me a quick update!
Love you!
Lindsay
Thursday, July 30, 2009
we need each other :)
oh yes we do!
you need me
and I need YOU!
that's a little jungle i made up just now. i miss you friends and family. could you send me some scriptures to read? prayer requests? stories? :) i'm so excited!
This morning I was reading this scripture out of 1 corinthians 12. Recap, earlier this week, i went to a bible study. and a girl named Nicole was saying "my arm can't say, i'm going on vacation, so you can't use me today!" could you imagine, if your arm could do that? i am sorry if i have done that in my own selfish pursuit of self preservation. i realize i have operated in that MO before, and if it has been with you... im sorry. you could let me know and i'll apologize in person too! :)
Perhaps we need a little pow-wow! Or maybe just me! ok, stand up dance around, shake all the stresses and cares out. slap your body really hard to awaken it. feel the tingle. blood is joyfully running at full speed through our bodies! Jump and give God a big "YEAH!!" and then pretend your giving me a hug! haha. i love hugs so much!
Enough about me, it's all about God's kingdom. dude, i bet they have a really nice pad! it's probably got nature all around, it gets so dark at night... wait there is no day or night is there? only the light of Christ? well ive never seen that one, so i bet it's better than any beautiful thing ive seen, ill probably remember it longer too! and a marriage ceremony will happen with all of us, and christ. dude it's gonna be weird when all these different christians make up one body Christ will be married to, perfectly. brain in praise mode.
will holla later. :)
1-3 What I want to talk about now is the various ways God's Spirit gets worked into our lives. This is complex and often mis-understood, but I want you to be informed and knowledgeable. Remember how you were when you didn't know God, led from one phony god to another, never knowing what you were doing, just doing it because everybody else did it? It's different in this life. God wants us to use our intelligence, to seek to understand as well as we can. For instance, by using your heads, you know perfectly well that the Spirit of God would never prompt anyone to say "Jesus be damned!" Nor would anyone be inclined to say "Jesus is Master!" without the insight of the Holy Spirit.
4-11God's various gifts are handed out everywhere; but they all originate in God's Spirit. God's various ministries are carried out everywhere; but they all originate in God's Spirit. God's various expressions of power are in action everywhere; but God himself is behind it all. Each person is given something to do that shows who God is: Everyone gets in on it, everyone benefits. All kinds of things are handed out by the Spirit, and to all kinds of people! The variety is wonderful:
wise counsel
clear understanding
simple trust (he gave that one to me:)
healing the sick
miraculous acts
proclamation
distinguishing between spirits
tongues
interpretation of tongues.
All these gifts have a common origin, but are handed out one by one by the one Spirit of God. He decides who gets what, and when.
12-13You can easily enough see how this kind of thing works by looking no further than your own body. Your body has many parts—limbs, organs, cells—but no matter how many parts you can name, you're still one body. It's exactly the same with Christ. By means of his one Spirit, we all said good-bye to our partial and piecemeal lives. We each used to independently call our own shots, but then we entered into a large and integrated life in which he has the final say in everything. (This is what we proclaimed in word and action when we were baptized.) Each of us is now a part of his resurrection body, refreshed and sustained at one fountain—his Spirit—where we all come to drink. The old labels we once used to identify ourselves—labels like Jew or Greek, slave or free—are no longer useful. We need something larger, more comprehensive. (crazy!)
14-18I want you to think about how all this makes you more significant, not less. A body isn't just a single part blown up into something huge. It's all the different-but-similar parts arranged and functioning together. If Foot said, "I'm not elegant like Hand, embellished with rings; I guess I don't belong to this body," would that make it so? If Ear said, "I'm not beautiful like Eye, limpid and expressive; I don't deserve a place on the head," would you want to remove it from the body? If the body was all eye, how could it hear? If all ear, how could it smell? As it is, we see that God has carefully placed each part of the body right where he wanted it.
19-24But I also want you to think about how this keeps your significance from getting blown up into self-importance. For no matter how significant you are, it is only because of what you are a part of. An enormous eye or a gigantic hand wouldn't be a body, but a monster. What we have is one body with many parts, each its proper size and in its proper place. No part is important on its own. Can you imagine Eye telling Hand, "Get lost; I don't need you"? (:( sorry) Or, Head telling Foot, "You're fired; your job has been phased out"? As a matter of fact, in practice it works the other way—the "lower" the part, the more basic, and therefore necessary. You can live without an eye, for instance, but not without a stomach. When it's a part of your own body you are concerned with, it makes no difference whether the part is visible or clothed, higher or lower. You give it dignity and honor just as it is, without comparisons. If anything, you have more concern for the lower parts than the higher. If you had to choose, wouldn't you prefer good digestion to full-bodied hair?
25-26The way God designed our bodies is a model for understanding our lives together as a church: every part dependent on every other part, the parts we mention and the parts we don't, the parts we see and the parts we don't. If one part hurts, every other part is involved in the hurt, and in the healing. If one part flourishes, every other part enters into the exuberance.
27-31You are Christ's body—that's who you are! You must never forget this. Only as you accept your part of that body does your "part" mean anything. You're familiar with some of the parts that God has formed in his church, which is his "body":
apostles
prophets
teachers
miracle workers
healers
helpers
organizers
those who pray in tongues.
But it's obvious by now, isn't it, that Christ's church is a complete Body and not a gigantic, unidimensional Part? It's not all Apostle, not all Prophet, not all Miracle Worker, not all Healer, not all Prayer in Tongues, not all Interpreter of Tongues. And yet some of you keep competing for so-called "important" parts.
But now I want to lay out a far better way for you. it's love. duh! :)
the surf competition is coming up and i am going on sunday. please pray for us :)
you need me
and I need YOU!
that's a little jungle i made up just now. i miss you friends and family. could you send me some scriptures to read? prayer requests? stories? :) i'm so excited!
This morning I was reading this scripture out of 1 corinthians 12. Recap, earlier this week, i went to a bible study. and a girl named Nicole was saying "my arm can't say, i'm going on vacation, so you can't use me today!" could you imagine, if your arm could do that? i am sorry if i have done that in my own selfish pursuit of self preservation. i realize i have operated in that MO before, and if it has been with you... im sorry. you could let me know and i'll apologize in person too! :)
Perhaps we need a little pow-wow! Or maybe just me! ok, stand up dance around, shake all the stresses and cares out. slap your body really hard to awaken it. feel the tingle. blood is joyfully running at full speed through our bodies! Jump and give God a big "YEAH!!" and then pretend your giving me a hug! haha. i love hugs so much!
Enough about me, it's all about God's kingdom. dude, i bet they have a really nice pad! it's probably got nature all around, it gets so dark at night... wait there is no day or night is there? only the light of Christ? well ive never seen that one, so i bet it's better than any beautiful thing ive seen, ill probably remember it longer too! and a marriage ceremony will happen with all of us, and christ. dude it's gonna be weird when all these different christians make up one body Christ will be married to, perfectly. brain in praise mode.
will holla later. :)
1-3 What I want to talk about now is the various ways God's Spirit gets worked into our lives. This is complex and often mis-understood, but I want you to be informed and knowledgeable. Remember how you were when you didn't know God, led from one phony god to another, never knowing what you were doing, just doing it because everybody else did it? It's different in this life. God wants us to use our intelligence, to seek to understand as well as we can. For instance, by using your heads, you know perfectly well that the Spirit of God would never prompt anyone to say "Jesus be damned!" Nor would anyone be inclined to say "Jesus is Master!" without the insight of the Holy Spirit.
4-11God's various gifts are handed out everywhere; but they all originate in God's Spirit. God's various ministries are carried out everywhere; but they all originate in God's Spirit. God's various expressions of power are in action everywhere; but God himself is behind it all. Each person is given something to do that shows who God is: Everyone gets in on it, everyone benefits. All kinds of things are handed out by the Spirit, and to all kinds of people! The variety is wonderful:
wise counsel
clear understanding
simple trust (he gave that one to me:)
healing the sick
miraculous acts
proclamation
distinguishing between spirits
tongues
interpretation of tongues.
All these gifts have a common origin, but are handed out one by one by the one Spirit of God. He decides who gets what, and when.
12-13You can easily enough see how this kind of thing works by looking no further than your own body. Your body has many parts—limbs, organs, cells—but no matter how many parts you can name, you're still one body. It's exactly the same with Christ. By means of his one Spirit, we all said good-bye to our partial and piecemeal lives. We each used to independently call our own shots, but then we entered into a large and integrated life in which he has the final say in everything. (This is what we proclaimed in word and action when we were baptized.) Each of us is now a part of his resurrection body, refreshed and sustained at one fountain—his Spirit—where we all come to drink. The old labels we once used to identify ourselves—labels like Jew or Greek, slave or free—are no longer useful. We need something larger, more comprehensive. (crazy!)
14-18I want you to think about how all this makes you more significant, not less. A body isn't just a single part blown up into something huge. It's all the different-but-similar parts arranged and functioning together. If Foot said, "I'm not elegant like Hand, embellished with rings; I guess I don't belong to this body," would that make it so? If Ear said, "I'm not beautiful like Eye, limpid and expressive; I don't deserve a place on the head," would you want to remove it from the body? If the body was all eye, how could it hear? If all ear, how could it smell? As it is, we see that God has carefully placed each part of the body right where he wanted it.
19-24But I also want you to think about how this keeps your significance from getting blown up into self-importance. For no matter how significant you are, it is only because of what you are a part of. An enormous eye or a gigantic hand wouldn't be a body, but a monster. What we have is one body with many parts, each its proper size and in its proper place. No part is important on its own. Can you imagine Eye telling Hand, "Get lost; I don't need you"? (:( sorry) Or, Head telling Foot, "You're fired; your job has been phased out"? As a matter of fact, in practice it works the other way—the "lower" the part, the more basic, and therefore necessary. You can live without an eye, for instance, but not without a stomach. When it's a part of your own body you are concerned with, it makes no difference whether the part is visible or clothed, higher or lower. You give it dignity and honor just as it is, without comparisons. If anything, you have more concern for the lower parts than the higher. If you had to choose, wouldn't you prefer good digestion to full-bodied hair?
25-26The way God designed our bodies is a model for understanding our lives together as a church: every part dependent on every other part, the parts we mention and the parts we don't, the parts we see and the parts we don't. If one part hurts, every other part is involved in the hurt, and in the healing. If one part flourishes, every other part enters into the exuberance.
27-31You are Christ's body—that's who you are! You must never forget this. Only as you accept your part of that body does your "part" mean anything. You're familiar with some of the parts that God has formed in his church, which is his "body":
apostles
prophets
teachers
miracle workers
healers
helpers
organizers
those who pray in tongues.
But it's obvious by now, isn't it, that Christ's church is a complete Body and not a gigantic, unidimensional Part? It's not all Apostle, not all Prophet, not all Miracle Worker, not all Healer, not all Prayer in Tongues, not all Interpreter of Tongues. And yet some of you keep competing for so-called "important" parts.
But now I want to lay out a far better way for you. it's love. duh! :)
the surf competition is coming up and i am going on sunday. please pray for us :)
Wednesday, July 29, 2009
love never ends. infatuation does.
for this to be honest, love must help me write this.
i always have wondered; "how long will it take to mend a broken heart?"
is it even repairable? i think my heart looks more like a gaping canyon. and less of a flat, connected peaceful prairie! haha
you know what though? it's totally cool, because Jesus can build a bridge with His resources. He can make my garden look anyway He wants it to look. Yes, i stupidly have allowed some very destructive people into my garden, that have treated it like garbage. but Jesus comes in and checks out the damage. starts to make some changes here and there, and it looks so beautiful!
you know the balm of gilead the bible talks about? it's like this salve that can pretty much repair anything and make it look shiny and new again. rub some of that on my old heart now, as i sit here thanking you that you have come!
Sometimes I feel like I keep repeating the same stupid mistakes in relationships. it starts off with a stranger, who i don't know, and i trust them with all my info, thinking they can handle it! dude, how unintelligent is it to "fall in love" with someone who is a stranger? to let them into the private territory of my heart, when they have absolutely no privilege coming in? even if they ask, i will now assume that they can not handle the beauty within all at once. it must be seen through a myriad of different windows. So i am in the process of devising a new way to fall in love... God's way through Lindsay.
1. first, walk in love with jesus. his love for me is always constant, He's my number 1 anyway, so i want to focus on Him, our feelings are mutual :)
2. grow healthy relationships with men, and treat them as brothers with honor. and expect the same in return.
3. expect amazing things from a God who loves me and has His best plan for me in His mind. i just have to wait for it! i love waiting, each day is one step closer to heaven, and marriage is another learning experience. i can allow it, or i can remain single. in both cases, i am with Love, and that's my home.
as of right now, i would like to get married, and share life with a person who is special and beautiful in Christ. who wouldn't? but i want to keep learning to have relationships with people in a healthy way that honors God and them. and then quite possibly take the steps towards getting married. dude, i don't know, i feel like this is kind of far off to be thinking about it now. o, whatever! haha God knows exactly and he will prepare me accordingly at the right time. all i get to do is relax, and make the best posibble decisions i can. they have faith everything will fit into place!
Lord, my prayer is to know how to healthfully navigate this particular kind of love. to be content, and alive right where i am always. to be intimately acquainted with you and others. you rock! in jesus christ name, amen
Things that have been instrumental in my healing from heart breaks. just in case you feel like reading. i just want to remember the things i have done, because they are great!
listening to Tid-bits of wisdom like...
"God is near to the broken hearted."
"If the flame was intense quickly, it will fizzle out just as fast."
"fall in love is insanity"
"be friends and stay true to yourself."
Listening to music
times: by tenth avenue north (current)
writing letters and praying through my emotions with God, and also with friends. thanks guys!!
and asking questions.
meditating on God's love for me, it makes me feel filled up with love and confidence.
i don't know why all of this came out now, but im confident there is a reason.
Linds
i always have wondered; "how long will it take to mend a broken heart?"
is it even repairable? i think my heart looks more like a gaping canyon. and less of a flat, connected peaceful prairie! haha
you know what though? it's totally cool, because Jesus can build a bridge with His resources. He can make my garden look anyway He wants it to look. Yes, i stupidly have allowed some very destructive people into my garden, that have treated it like garbage. but Jesus comes in and checks out the damage. starts to make some changes here and there, and it looks so beautiful!
you know the balm of gilead the bible talks about? it's like this salve that can pretty much repair anything and make it look shiny and new again. rub some of that on my old heart now, as i sit here thanking you that you have come!
Sometimes I feel like I keep repeating the same stupid mistakes in relationships. it starts off with a stranger, who i don't know, and i trust them with all my info, thinking they can handle it! dude, how unintelligent is it to "fall in love" with someone who is a stranger? to let them into the private territory of my heart, when they have absolutely no privilege coming in? even if they ask, i will now assume that they can not handle the beauty within all at once. it must be seen through a myriad of different windows. So i am in the process of devising a new way to fall in love... God's way through Lindsay.
1. first, walk in love with jesus. his love for me is always constant, He's my number 1 anyway, so i want to focus on Him, our feelings are mutual :)
2. grow healthy relationships with men, and treat them as brothers with honor. and expect the same in return.
3. expect amazing things from a God who loves me and has His best plan for me in His mind. i just have to wait for it! i love waiting, each day is one step closer to heaven, and marriage is another learning experience. i can allow it, or i can remain single. in both cases, i am with Love, and that's my home.
as of right now, i would like to get married, and share life with a person who is special and beautiful in Christ. who wouldn't? but i want to keep learning to have relationships with people in a healthy way that honors God and them. and then quite possibly take the steps towards getting married. dude, i don't know, i feel like this is kind of far off to be thinking about it now. o, whatever! haha God knows exactly and he will prepare me accordingly at the right time. all i get to do is relax, and make the best posibble decisions i can. they have faith everything will fit into place!
Lord, my prayer is to know how to healthfully navigate this particular kind of love. to be content, and alive right where i am always. to be intimately acquainted with you and others. you rock! in jesus christ name, amen
Things that have been instrumental in my healing from heart breaks. just in case you feel like reading. i just want to remember the things i have done, because they are great!
listening to Tid-bits of wisdom like...
"God is near to the broken hearted."
"If the flame was intense quickly, it will fizzle out just as fast."
"fall in love is insanity"
"be friends and stay true to yourself."
Listening to music
times: by tenth avenue north (current)
writing letters and praying through my emotions with God, and also with friends. thanks guys!!
and asking questions.
meditating on God's love for me, it makes me feel filled up with love and confidence.
i don't know why all of this came out now, but im confident there is a reason.
Linds
Tuesday, July 28, 2009
life is but a dream....
i rowed my boat away from the world today. i let go of hopes, dreams, relationships and other "stuff" i had been pursuing.
i felt scared when i did this because i didn't want to let these things go.
"if i let these things go, i don't know who ill be," i thought to myself...
so, there were two boats, and one boat had all the things that make me "me" on it. everything that identifies me is there on that boat. my experiences, dreams, wants... EVERYTHING. but on the other boat is jesus and me. that's all. i was holding on to the othe r boat by a rope. i knew if i let go... all hell would break lose and heaven would rejoice... so i let go. and then... the boats got sucked away to polar opposites of the sea. i am at sea with jesus, i have no clue where...
and I love it.
verse of inspiration luke 9 :23 ish
23-27Then he told them what they could expect for themselves: "Anyone who intends to come with me has to let me lead. You're not in the driver's seat—I am. Don't run from suffering; embrace it. Follow me and I'll show you how. Self-help is no help at all. Self-sacrifice is the way, my way, to finding yourself, your true self. What good would it do to get everything you want and lose you, the real you? If any of you is embarrassed with me and the way I'm leading you, know that the Son of Man will be far more embarrassed with you when he arrives in all his splendor in company with the Father and the holy angels. This isn't, you realize, pie in the sky by and by. Some who have taken their stand right here are going to see it happen, see with their own eyes the kingdom of God."
and i shared my story of meeting Jesus with Pamela and her son, phil tonight. pamelas father is dying in the UK. she needs the love and support and prayer for God's perfect will over her life. rejoice, again i say rejoice, this is no pie in the sky by and by kind of faith. God's kingdom is coming to earth.
i felt scared when i did this because i didn't want to let these things go.
"if i let these things go, i don't know who ill be," i thought to myself...
so, there were two boats, and one boat had all the things that make me "me" on it. everything that identifies me is there on that boat. my experiences, dreams, wants... EVERYTHING. but on the other boat is jesus and me. that's all. i was holding on to the othe r boat by a rope. i knew if i let go... all hell would break lose and heaven would rejoice... so i let go. and then... the boats got sucked away to polar opposites of the sea. i am at sea with jesus, i have no clue where...
and I love it.
verse of inspiration luke 9 :23 ish
23-27Then he told them what they could expect for themselves: "Anyone who intends to come with me has to let me lead. You're not in the driver's seat—I am. Don't run from suffering; embrace it. Follow me and I'll show you how. Self-help is no help at all. Self-sacrifice is the way, my way, to finding yourself, your true self. What good would it do to get everything you want and lose you, the real you? If any of you is embarrassed with me and the way I'm leading you, know that the Son of Man will be far more embarrassed with you when he arrives in all his splendor in company with the Father and the holy angels. This isn't, you realize, pie in the sky by and by. Some who have taken their stand right here are going to see it happen, see with their own eyes the kingdom of God."
and i shared my story of meeting Jesus with Pamela and her son, phil tonight. pamelas father is dying in the UK. she needs the love and support and prayer for God's perfect will over her life. rejoice, again i say rejoice, this is no pie in the sky by and by kind of faith. God's kingdom is coming to earth.
people who don't know what they are doing...
are winners! haha i just read this devotional by oswald chambers, and i'll post it here for you as well.
"God’s Purpose or Mine?
He made His disciples get into the boat and go before Him to the other side . . . —Mark 6:45
We tend to think that if Jesus Christ compels us to do something and we are obedient to Him, He will lead us to great success. We should never have the thought that our dreams of success are God’s purpose for us. In fact, His purpose may be exactly the opposite. We have the idea that God is leading us toward a particular end or a desired goal, but He is not. The question of whether or not we arrive at a particular goal is of little importance, and reaching it becomes merely an episode along the way. What we see as only the process of reaching a particular end, God sees as the goal itself.
What is my vision of God’s purpose for me? Whatever it may be, His purpose is for me to depend on Him and on His power now. If I can stay calm, faithful, and unconfused while in the middle of the turmoil of life, the goal of the purpose of God is being accomplished in me. God is not working toward a particular finish— His purpose is the process itself. What He desires for me is that I see "Him walking on the sea" with no shore, no success, nor goal in sight, but simply having the absolute certainty that everything is all right because I see "Him walking on the sea" ( Mark 6:49 ). It is the process, not the outcome, that is glorifying to God.
God’s training is for now, not later. His purpose is for this very minute, not for sometime in the future. We have nothing to do with what will follow our obedience, and we are wrong to concern ourselves with it. What people call preparation, God sees as the goal itself.
God’s purpose is to enable me to see that He can walk on the storms of my life right now. If we have a further goal in mind, we are not paying enough attention to the present time. However, if we realize that moment-by-moment obedience is the goal, then each moment as it comes is precious."
Questions: you can ask yourself, too. these are my answers, what are yours?
1. what am i expecting God to do?
Answer: i found myself expecting God to do things in my life that included stability, security and comfortability. but as a christian, i am finding that we are to expect God to just BE, and we are mere spectators invited to join the race. prize or goal? heaven. and that WILL be MORE than enough!
2. why does God prefer the process rather than the goal?
A: pretty much because He wants us to be quality people. for instance, i will use new age thinking, compared to christ centered thinking. a new age person worships an ambiguous god, with no emotion or substance. their god is not out to love them or hate them. not there to comfort, protect, justify or support. as compared to christ as God, he protects us, calls us winners when we know we are really losers. and most importantly is there to teach us how to love and have a fulfilling lifestyle here on earth. this is why i think God is more concerned about the process rather than the actual goal, because its in the process where we learn to love, appreciate, stay calm in the storms, and that makes Him look good!! :)
3. How in the world does He expect us to stay calm in the midst of a horrible storm??
A: by resting in Him. if Christ is the husband, do you really think he would let ANYTHING happen to this bride? seriously.
Updates: these can also be looked at as praises.
1. here at casa papaya, pamela, the owner, just found out her father is in a grave state. he is 86, so she may be flying out to the UK soon. please pray for her to recognize the sovereign hand of Christ's pursuit for her in her life. boldness and wisdom from the throne for myself, and fearlessness!!! yeah, baby!
2. this morning at the womens bible study i got invited too, we had a powerful meeting. there was a women named tanya there and her boyfriend is physically abusing her. she knew she needed God's strength to overcome this, and so she decided to come to the bible study! How beautiful, huh? i can't believe the things i am able to experience here. i want to cry with gratitude. it just shows that He really is an amazing God, that He could use us to play on His winning team! thanks God.
3. asking questions has changed my life! most of you know about my love life history, i won't dive into much detail there, only if you must know:) but i am looking for God's point of view concerning it. i have let go of EVERY other lover, but Christ. analogy time... it's as if i was at sea on a boat with everything i loved, my very life. but jesus and i hopped onto another boat, and i had a rope holding the 2 boats together. i visualized myself letting the rope go. it slipped away like a whirlwind, as if at my release, the boats separated us into 2 different worlds! i have no idea where christ and i are headed. some apprehensions have arised, but i remind myself who i am with. it's the christ! rejoice with me, because I am learning to walk and trust my lover.
"for whoever wants to save his life will lose it, and whoever loses his life for Me will save it." luke 9:23
you have my heart, and thank you for reading. would love your feedback!
lindsay
"God’s Purpose or Mine?
He made His disciples get into the boat and go before Him to the other side . . . —Mark 6:45
We tend to think that if Jesus Christ compels us to do something and we are obedient to Him, He will lead us to great success. We should never have the thought that our dreams of success are God’s purpose for us. In fact, His purpose may be exactly the opposite. We have the idea that God is leading us toward a particular end or a desired goal, but He is not. The question of whether or not we arrive at a particular goal is of little importance, and reaching it becomes merely an episode along the way. What we see as only the process of reaching a particular end, God sees as the goal itself.
What is my vision of God’s purpose for me? Whatever it may be, His purpose is for me to depend on Him and on His power now. If I can stay calm, faithful, and unconfused while in the middle of the turmoil of life, the goal of the purpose of God is being accomplished in me. God is not working toward a particular finish— His purpose is the process itself. What He desires for me is that I see "Him walking on the sea" with no shore, no success, nor goal in sight, but simply having the absolute certainty that everything is all right because I see "Him walking on the sea" ( Mark 6:49 ). It is the process, not the outcome, that is glorifying to God.
God’s training is for now, not later. His purpose is for this very minute, not for sometime in the future. We have nothing to do with what will follow our obedience, and we are wrong to concern ourselves with it. What people call preparation, God sees as the goal itself.
God’s purpose is to enable me to see that He can walk on the storms of my life right now. If we have a further goal in mind, we are not paying enough attention to the present time. However, if we realize that moment-by-moment obedience is the goal, then each moment as it comes is precious."
Questions: you can ask yourself, too. these are my answers, what are yours?
1. what am i expecting God to do?
Answer: i found myself expecting God to do things in my life that included stability, security and comfortability. but as a christian, i am finding that we are to expect God to just BE, and we are mere spectators invited to join the race. prize or goal? heaven. and that WILL be MORE than enough!
2. why does God prefer the process rather than the goal?
A: pretty much because He wants us to be quality people. for instance, i will use new age thinking, compared to christ centered thinking. a new age person worships an ambiguous god, with no emotion or substance. their god is not out to love them or hate them. not there to comfort, protect, justify or support. as compared to christ as God, he protects us, calls us winners when we know we are really losers. and most importantly is there to teach us how to love and have a fulfilling lifestyle here on earth. this is why i think God is more concerned about the process rather than the actual goal, because its in the process where we learn to love, appreciate, stay calm in the storms, and that makes Him look good!! :)
3. How in the world does He expect us to stay calm in the midst of a horrible storm??
A: by resting in Him. if Christ is the husband, do you really think he would let ANYTHING happen to this bride? seriously.
Updates: these can also be looked at as praises.
1. here at casa papaya, pamela, the owner, just found out her father is in a grave state. he is 86, so she may be flying out to the UK soon. please pray for her to recognize the sovereign hand of Christ's pursuit for her in her life. boldness and wisdom from the throne for myself, and fearlessness!!! yeah, baby!
2. this morning at the womens bible study i got invited too, we had a powerful meeting. there was a women named tanya there and her boyfriend is physically abusing her. she knew she needed God's strength to overcome this, and so she decided to come to the bible study! How beautiful, huh? i can't believe the things i am able to experience here. i want to cry with gratitude. it just shows that He really is an amazing God, that He could use us to play on His winning team! thanks God.
3. asking questions has changed my life! most of you know about my love life history, i won't dive into much detail there, only if you must know:) but i am looking for God's point of view concerning it. i have let go of EVERY other lover, but Christ. analogy time... it's as if i was at sea on a boat with everything i loved, my very life. but jesus and i hopped onto another boat, and i had a rope holding the 2 boats together. i visualized myself letting the rope go. it slipped away like a whirlwind, as if at my release, the boats separated us into 2 different worlds! i have no idea where christ and i are headed. some apprehensions have arised, but i remind myself who i am with. it's the christ! rejoice with me, because I am learning to walk and trust my lover.
"for whoever wants to save his life will lose it, and whoever loses his life for Me will save it." luke 9:23
you have my heart, and thank you for reading. would love your feedback!
lindsay
Monday, July 27, 2009
charlene is like linus from charley brown! i miss her!!!!
this was from a day when char, michelle and i went to the beach, we were all laying out, and a big waves came all the way up to where we were. charlene didnt get up quick enough and the wave ended us soaking her and her towel as she lay there. it was hysterical! we'll this is her walking back looking like linus from charley brown! i love it!
when was the last time...? + pics!
this entry is entitled "when was the last time...?" because i am going to ask you (and me) a series of questions, that will describe my day to you...
1. sat in your room all alone with classical music on, a homemade mask on your face, and was in your birthday suit? yep! sometimes you have to have some "you" time.
2. made yourself a fresh salad with raisins and walnuts, vinegar, lemon juice, tomatoes and some salt?
3. had a fresh mango for desert?
4. had a conversation about the successful life of Benjamin Franklin? did you know he has 14 moral expectations he would check off everynight? humility and generosity were on the list.
5. went to the beach? and had your hands and feet kissed by the water on the shore?
6. caught a straw hat being blown away from its owner?
7. rode on an ATV?
8. hitch hiked? that was a few days ago...
9. told you dad you are blessed to carry his name? i read a blog to my dad today, and it said how i was thankful for his efforts in providing an amazing life for me, he thanked me sincerely. it was a painfully precious moment.
10. read lips and talked to a computer, with no audible response? i felt like a looney person. :/
11. fed a stray dog?
12. last but not least... painted rocks?
yep, i did all those things. i had a terribly busy day. let me show you some pictures...
Sunday, July 26, 2009
good news from a distant land.
God really pays off. God is WAY amazing! First I GET to spend time with Him, and then second, He gives me blessings!!! Dude, He seriously is AWE-mazing. Is EVERYTHING about Him good? That's why He is different from those fake gods. I feel so safe and rested in Him. Oh, I love Jesus! He is who He says He is.
let me tell you what just played out. first, i was just up in my room talking plainly with God. Thanking Him that someway I would be sending good news back home. i didn't think twice about it, but it was like He was in the room with me. and heard every word I said! because moments later, pamela (owner of casa papaya) knocked on my door, and sat down and talked with me for a few minutes with a letter she had written me. she wanted to thank me for bringing such wonderful guests with me, and how she looks forward to meeting the rest! in the letter she mentioned that when my dad arrives he can stay for free without paying any extra little charges. anyway, the most important thing was her heart of gratitude. she even gave me a gift of incense! we have shared moments with each other, with patience and understanding for each other, and God has been honored. I am thankful to be staying here, and it's been wonderful to see the movement of Jesus in our midst. It's like He is living here also. I can't see him, but i see His work. i don't see a tree growing, but i see the fruit ripening. dude, God is up to something up in here!!!!!
Prayer Requests
1. for pamela, because she will be moving to the middle east for a job. pray for her to be astonished by the way God is pursuing her.
2. mike (room next door) jew guy who loves yoga and girls. he is a man who wants a meaningful relationship one day, i hope he gets it.
3. gaby (yoga teacher) to recognize "pura vida" is in Christ. seriously.
side note:: i have decided not to participate in yoga anymore, because of it's roots in false idol worship. (any feedback on that?! i am open) because i really want to do yoga, but i cant offend my lover. im flirting with another "lover" when i participate. God is my only Lover. and I love that!!! :D im already married, i cant be flirting!
PRAISES and HIGHLIGHTS!
1. God is breaking off things in my life like... worry and body odor! haha. (ask if you really wanna know!) and adding to me boldness and openness about OUR relationship. and... got to talk with mike (jew guy who loves yoga and girls) about my relationship with jesus today! it was random and bold, and soo exhilarating!!
2. went to a fiesta last night in santa cruz! it was the province of guanacaste's independence day! was super fun!
3. had a super chill day.
im off to rest a little. but man, so many little life things happen, and i want to tell you ALL of them! just one more.... ill make it short.
Alejandro. let me introduce him. He's the original gangster of playa negra. he's been here for over 10 years. he's an all natural healing surfer, who is from argentina and sells womens clothing. yep. this man is so chill. i saw him eating a mango today at the beach, and i had to smile. but anyways, he gave me some earth clay stuff that i have been applying to my face regularly, and i'll tell you what... my face is gonna be flawless soon. it extracts bacteria from all the lotions and crap from the pores, and then tightens them. exfoliates the skin and makes it as soft as a babies behind! he lives down the street from casa papaya.
Ok, have a wonderful rest of your day! be joyful always :) talk to God about everything and say thanks all the time, for this is God's will for us in Christ Jesus. that has become my life verse... i love it's simplicity!
all my love!
Lindsay
let me tell you what just played out. first, i was just up in my room talking plainly with God. Thanking Him that someway I would be sending good news back home. i didn't think twice about it, but it was like He was in the room with me. and heard every word I said! because moments later, pamela (owner of casa papaya) knocked on my door, and sat down and talked with me for a few minutes with a letter she had written me. she wanted to thank me for bringing such wonderful guests with me, and how she looks forward to meeting the rest! in the letter she mentioned that when my dad arrives he can stay for free without paying any extra little charges. anyway, the most important thing was her heart of gratitude. she even gave me a gift of incense! we have shared moments with each other, with patience and understanding for each other, and God has been honored. I am thankful to be staying here, and it's been wonderful to see the movement of Jesus in our midst. It's like He is living here also. I can't see him, but i see His work. i don't see a tree growing, but i see the fruit ripening. dude, God is up to something up in here!!!!!
Prayer Requests
1. for pamela, because she will be moving to the middle east for a job. pray for her to be astonished by the way God is pursuing her.
2. mike (room next door) jew guy who loves yoga and girls. he is a man who wants a meaningful relationship one day, i hope he gets it.
3. gaby (yoga teacher) to recognize "pura vida" is in Christ. seriously.
side note:: i have decided not to participate in yoga anymore, because of it's roots in false idol worship. (any feedback on that?! i am open) because i really want to do yoga, but i cant offend my lover. im flirting with another "lover" when i participate. God is my only Lover. and I love that!!! :D im already married, i cant be flirting!
PRAISES and HIGHLIGHTS!
1. God is breaking off things in my life like... worry and body odor! haha. (ask if you really wanna know!) and adding to me boldness and openness about OUR relationship. and... got to talk with mike (jew guy who loves yoga and girls) about my relationship with jesus today! it was random and bold, and soo exhilarating!!
2. went to a fiesta last night in santa cruz! it was the province of guanacaste's independence day! was super fun!
3. had a super chill day.
im off to rest a little. but man, so many little life things happen, and i want to tell you ALL of them! just one more.... ill make it short.
Alejandro. let me introduce him. He's the original gangster of playa negra. he's been here for over 10 years. he's an all natural healing surfer, who is from argentina and sells womens clothing. yep. this man is so chill. i saw him eating a mango today at the beach, and i had to smile. but anyways, he gave me some earth clay stuff that i have been applying to my face regularly, and i'll tell you what... my face is gonna be flawless soon. it extracts bacteria from all the lotions and crap from the pores, and then tightens them. exfoliates the skin and makes it as soft as a babies behind! he lives down the street from casa papaya.
Ok, have a wonderful rest of your day! be joyful always :) talk to God about everything and say thanks all the time, for this is God's will for us in Christ Jesus. that has become my life verse... i love it's simplicity!
all my love!
Lindsay
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